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So yeah. The more anxiety that keeps getting brought up by all the weirdness in my relationships (or ex-relationships that are now "just friendships") the more I feel the pull to move somewhere away from all of the nostalgia and sentiment that Pennsylvania holds for me. Even the roads I travel on daily remind me of the trips to the houses I've been to, and the trips I've taken over two hours away to be with someone near Pottstown. I'm thinking Portland sounds wonderful, and I find myself wondering when the next deadline for the graduate writing program at Pacific University is so I can plan to get out of here asap. (The next deadline is in September)

I just feel like I need to get the hell out of here so I stop hanging out with ex-boyfriends. However, I'd be leaving behind a group of friends that I feel like I'm a huge part of. A group of friends that I love dearly and would do anything for. One of them, Corey, told me I should make a list of all the things I want in life right now, of all the things that would make me happy and to work towards them. It sounds like a good idea.

Coming soon: the list of things that'll make me happy in my life, and in another person.
I'm too tired right now to start this tonight.