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I cannot sleep because my thoughts keep racing...all existential bullshit, too. Nothing overly important but only the most important stuff. And then I thought about this poem...and I knew that any hope of a good night's sleep was ruined.


"Wild Geese" by Mary Oliver

You do not have to be good.
You do not have to walk on your knees
for a hundred miles through...
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so,
my sister is a bit cross with me because I keep sleeping all the time but it's because I am sick and when I am stuck indoors I have just been nodding off. I didn't take any medicine yesterday and felt great until I woke up this morning. I even had dreams of coughing up specimens the size of my bed. My body is...
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tonight I am indulging all my dyke tendencies in Tegan & Sara, Alix Olsen and other things I swear off when I am on my college campus for fear of being all clich dyke. But I figure since I am a million miles away where I cannot be called out on this sort of thing--I shall indulge my hungry longings for women singing about loving...
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So, I took some tylonol PM and managed to get a few hours of sleep--it's weird. I feel as if...
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everything in my body hurts
wtfuxupwitdat?
Each day keeps slipping away faster than the last and I am wondering when I won't be sick--when I can feel like a real living boy--i mean, girl.
I want my luggage,
I want some self control,
I want to stop feeling sick GODDAMNIT
AHHHHHH

I can't believe that I am so sick.
Tonight I go to a "pantomime"...
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It's 3:30 AM here and I woke up about...3 hours ago because I felt like I couldnt breathe. On the plane over, I sat next to a couple who were wheezing and choking--hacking like crazy without covering their mouths. Everytime they did this, I cringed. I mean I cover my mouth when I fucking yawn...Anyway, and then when I finally reached my sister's house, she...
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Alright, so for those of you who don't know, I am spending my holiday in Cambod-I mean, Scotland...well, if you planned to travel internationally this season, I hope you decided against it because delays and cancellations marred my trip beyond repair...
I started my journey in Noho, Mass--leaving school and heading to the Manchester airport in New Hampshire to catch my flight to Newark, NJ...and...
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