THAT'S IT! FUCK THIS SHIT... 
If I would have known that the Reserves was gonna be such a fucking hassle and a big clusterfuck, I would have stayed in Active Duty. Another 4 years or so just don't seem so bad anymore.
So, I now plan on re-enlisting Active Duty once my Associate's Degree is finished. Hopefully (keyword here) I can get a shore duty billet for AIMD in Whidbey Island; if not, I'll take another sea duty billet but try to get into a decent squadron.
Factors contributing to my decision:
1) I FUCKING HATE TEXAS! The state sucks, the people suck, living here sucks, everything here sucks. What the hell is a matter with you people that think this state is so goddamn great? It's the epitome of ignorant loyalty and big-business Republicanism.
2) The Naval Reserves is such an unorganized sack of shit. I realize now that the reserves are basically bottom feeders of the regular military--they get the last of everything, even quality of service to the members (like how after a month I'm still not "in the system" so I can get paid). You won't ever have that problem with the regular Navy.
3) I came home to be with family, friends, and to go to college--things I missed out on the last 4 years unlike the rest of my peers. All my friends have gone away or have changed drastically from when we were in high school. My family doesn't welcome me with open arms and heart; so basically I have no family, so to speak.
4) College sucks because I feel like I'm in high school again: unchallenged and an outsider in a sociological sense. Sorry, I didn't grow up with you and sorry even more I'm not a booze-hounding redneck pothead.
5) Chicks in Texas--WHAT THE FUCKING HELL IS A MATTER WITH ALL OF YOU? You're all headcases and just don't know how to shut the fuck up and stop being ignorant, needy, arrogant cunts. Pacific Northwest chicks--chill, willing to put up with REAL issues, not petty ones, but won't take shit neither. They're the kind of chicks you always want to come home to, not use and throw away (like so many of the worthless chicks in Texas).
6) Skateboarding = pointless. There's hardly any talent or any real love for the art of it, just the "cool" factor of learning how to tre` flip and have Fast Forward groupies all over you. No local skateparks = inconvenient, and I refuse to pay to skate in an overcrowded, rotting wood indoor skatepark that I had to drive 30-45 minutes to get to.
7) The whole state of Texas smells like shit. Seriously, DFW was voted 8th on the most pollution in the United States. And Houston is worse, like 4th, I think. Texas cares as much about their environment as big-businesses care about their employees.
8) Music out here sucks. Rock bands are trying to be the next big Pantera rip-offs, country is all this metrosex-urban cowboy bullshit. Indie rock is just plain horrible artsy-wannabe crap done by all those rich, private christian college students. Punk is dead, enough said, and local hardcore is struggling for a voice (but I support you wholly for trying) and a place among the shadows of "mainstream" hardcore and all the faggy screamo shit encouraged by half-ass tranny skinny white kids (who wind up going those private christian colleges, mind you). And don't forget rap and hip-hop is trying to ride the coattails of the Houston Swishahouse scene, too.
9) Weather in Texas. Everyone talks shit about Washington's "suicide weather," but where else but in Texas does the weather ACTUALLY KILL PEOPLE (tornadoes, extreme heat, people forget how to drive on icy roads, torrential downpours if any precipitation occurs, etc.)?
10) I was actually kind of happy in the Navy. People are SANE in the military. You don't have put up fronts for people, and people can love you for who you really are because they live, work, and (hopefully this won't ever be the case) die with you. The military can be the world's largest reality TV show at times, but 95% of it is the boring stuff that TV executives edit out.
Expect me to leave this shithole state by next fall at the latest. I won't miss any of you, as I doubt any of you (that live here and know me) will miss me.
Edited to add:
At least there's light at the end of this tunnel... I just received my Madball, Bold and Judge cds in the mail today.
If I would have known that the Reserves was gonna be such a fucking hassle and a big clusterfuck, I would have stayed in Active Duty. Another 4 years or so just don't seem so bad anymore.
So, I now plan on re-enlisting Active Duty once my Associate's Degree is finished. Hopefully (keyword here) I can get a shore duty billet for AIMD in Whidbey Island; if not, I'll take another sea duty billet but try to get into a decent squadron.
Factors contributing to my decision:
1) I FUCKING HATE TEXAS! The state sucks, the people suck, living here sucks, everything here sucks. What the hell is a matter with you people that think this state is so goddamn great? It's the epitome of ignorant loyalty and big-business Republicanism.
2) The Naval Reserves is such an unorganized sack of shit. I realize now that the reserves are basically bottom feeders of the regular military--they get the last of everything, even quality of service to the members (like how after a month I'm still not "in the system" so I can get paid). You won't ever have that problem with the regular Navy.
3) I came home to be with family, friends, and to go to college--things I missed out on the last 4 years unlike the rest of my peers. All my friends have gone away or have changed drastically from when we were in high school. My family doesn't welcome me with open arms and heart; so basically I have no family, so to speak.
4) College sucks because I feel like I'm in high school again: unchallenged and an outsider in a sociological sense. Sorry, I didn't grow up with you and sorry even more I'm not a booze-hounding redneck pothead.
5) Chicks in Texas--WHAT THE FUCKING HELL IS A MATTER WITH ALL OF YOU? You're all headcases and just don't know how to shut the fuck up and stop being ignorant, needy, arrogant cunts. Pacific Northwest chicks--chill, willing to put up with REAL issues, not petty ones, but won't take shit neither. They're the kind of chicks you always want to come home to, not use and throw away (like so many of the worthless chicks in Texas).
6) Skateboarding = pointless. There's hardly any talent or any real love for the art of it, just the "cool" factor of learning how to tre` flip and have Fast Forward groupies all over you. No local skateparks = inconvenient, and I refuse to pay to skate in an overcrowded, rotting wood indoor skatepark that I had to drive 30-45 minutes to get to.
7) The whole state of Texas smells like shit. Seriously, DFW was voted 8th on the most pollution in the United States. And Houston is worse, like 4th, I think. Texas cares as much about their environment as big-businesses care about their employees.
8) Music out here sucks. Rock bands are trying to be the next big Pantera rip-offs, country is all this metrosex-urban cowboy bullshit. Indie rock is just plain horrible artsy-wannabe crap done by all those rich, private christian college students. Punk is dead, enough said, and local hardcore is struggling for a voice (but I support you wholly for trying) and a place among the shadows of "mainstream" hardcore and all the faggy screamo shit encouraged by half-ass tranny skinny white kids (who wind up going those private christian colleges, mind you). And don't forget rap and hip-hop is trying to ride the coattails of the Houston Swishahouse scene, too.
9) Weather in Texas. Everyone talks shit about Washington's "suicide weather," but where else but in Texas does the weather ACTUALLY KILL PEOPLE (tornadoes, extreme heat, people forget how to drive on icy roads, torrential downpours if any precipitation occurs, etc.)?
10) I was actually kind of happy in the Navy. People are SANE in the military. You don't have put up fronts for people, and people can love you for who you really are because they live, work, and (hopefully this won't ever be the case) die with you. The military can be the world's largest reality TV show at times, but 95% of it is the boring stuff that TV executives edit out.
Expect me to leave this shithole state by next fall at the latest. I won't miss any of you, as I doubt any of you (that live here and know me) will miss me.
Edited to add:
At least there's light at the end of this tunnel... I just received my Madball, Bold and Judge cds in the mail today.
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Come to Canada.
I've been that way all my life, never fitted in. I rather be a freak then a sheep anyday though.
I hope you get things straightened out and move out when you can. Being unhappy isn't good for the soul and if you can help it get to it.