xmasboy

It's always the same thing, i have many problems but i can't talk about !
I think it's not so important, somebody have more problems than me but i don't feel glad all the same !
So i drink, i smoke and destroy myself ...

I think i need someone to feel better, but i'm affraid to that 'cause i'm just in a no-fault divorce after 4 years of conjugal life ! But my divorce, it's a good thing for me even if i feel alone !

So, it's a good thing to go out, to meet some people, to have good time !
But all girls i meet have a boyfriend !
My currently girlfriend is married and i don't think we will live both one day...

Well, i say : "Carpe diem" ! And try to keep all good moments i can. But, it's not easy to be well all day and sometimes, like today, i don't feel great.

In this case, i don't know what i'm or what i'm useful and i think death is just the end. I don't believe in a god and i don't think there are something after...

I hope i don't have depressed someone, never mind ...