xmaggiex

To him,
I wish things were different and I wish things weren't said. I used to be so happy and strong, now I am so weak and empty. You do something to me that no one else can. Every new crush is a mere distraction from you. Nobody is ever good enough because they just aren't you. I had a dream about you again last night, but this one was different you had no face. I knew it was you from your voice and your touch. I woke tingly and happy, to come to the realization that none of it is real. You are the first thing in my head in the morning and the last thing at night. Your face is in my mind day after day. When I see you at a show it sends needles down my spine, but according to you "you no longer exist". I would give anything just to sit and talk, to know that you are happy and see a smile on your face. I was told time is the only healer, but I'm doubting that holds true, the emptiness just gets worse as the months go through. I am hopeful that one day you will forgive me like I did you. Maybe I am delusional and I am blinded from reality and cannot see the truth for what it is. But please tell me that is not true. All I want is one day to talk to you. I think that maybe the only thing to make this go away.