xiiibullets

I Think to much, lol. It sucks, I overanalyze every situation and think of the worst posible outcome of it and focus on that, which makees me not wana do it.

Flaw - Only the Strong
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so now i'm bleeding on myself yes once again.
seems i trusted another deceitful freind.
my fault. should've known the deal.
keep your friends close, but your enemies closer, for real.
seems easy, but nothing could be so hard.
trying to guess lifes dealing. what's the next card?
I'm surely folding.
i don't like this hand at all......
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Ya know, as much as ive been hurt in my life, Im realy suprise im able to feel something so strong for some one, especialy when I know she dont feel the same way and that nothing could ever happen between us.
and why must they lie to you, I would rather have had her say she dosnt like me more then a friend. insted she says that bs that every one else says... Your a nice guy and all but right now in my life I just dont have the time for a relation ship...
and then i see her flirting with other guys right infront of me, makes me feel so bad ya know. it scares me how much i can hate her so much but still love her at the same time.