There was a very recent post by the beautiful @ivylina here about the integrity of SG that I think everyone should read. She has been one of the most respectful and pro-SG voices I've heard in a while supporting not just the women in the community but the members as well. She's always there to push hopefuls to great heights, support her sisters that have become pink, and guide the hands of members for issues great and small.
I've been on this site since 2004. I've seen women come and go. I've befriended many members and girls that wielded a mass of SOTDs yet most have since retired. If you check my blog history you'll see I've come and gone many times with the most recent length of time away being about 4 years! It's a great community, it truly is. There is no social media site quite like it connecting worldly members on a variety of topics from sex to video games to art and everything between. Facebook is set up to connect people who live near each other while Instagram focuses on photos. There is no site like this. Anywhere. Period. Sites like Burning Angel and God's Girls tried their variations on connecting girls and members with varying results and some stole girls from here then even they dissipated from those other sites as well.
Many of you know me (especially the ones who might read this) and know that I care very deeply about all the models and photographers as well as the members and people that have become involved with this site. Many of become very close and we've exchanged phone numbers while some others have exchanged other forms of communication so that we do not lose touch when we decide to pursue other endeavors. I've learned so much about so many people and cultures. I've connected with some very cool and beautiful people. It's a great place to meet lovers and friends alike.
As someone who cares about the people I meet here it's always been a discouragement the amount of times I see constant posts pushing others sites like Patreon, MFC, and all these other sites. I understand that there isn't a lot of money to be made on the site and it's more of a launch site for many women to get into music videos, expose their art, make some extra cash to pursue their dreams, etc, and I support that they promote themselves, but it's come at a cost of contact. I'm sorry, but did I join the site to see a hundred posts about how I can pay to see you masturbate on cam or get even more nudes? No, I personally did not. That's cool. I don't mind it and I'm more than cool with the fact that people will help fund your life. I'm a low-income member barely making ends meet and find it hard to meet cool individuals or expand my world view for many reasons, but this site offered that in troves.
It's great to see some of these beautiful faces hit front page over and over again, but what about some of these other beautiful hopefuls with 5, 7, 10 sets that have exceeded the amount of love that some of the front page sets have received? Some of them contact me directly through blogs, private messages, or other forms and I know they treat their "friends" on this site with the same respect. They care about the people who pay to come on here and see all there is to be seen from naked girls to amazing displays of art and intelligent conversation. Some girls post once every three months to advertise that I can get some hot NSFW photos in Snapchat and they've had 4 SOTDs without much of a peep or even a like for some of the heartfelt commentaries on their sets or in their blog posts.
I know a lot goes into the sets and some are very worthy of making SOTD because they are beautifully taken images, but there are many left in the cold and some girls that seem left in the cold to members such as myself. I don't know the behind the scenes drama or activities, no, but I do know the hearts of many of these girls that I've befriended enough to love and care for them as family. It's sad to see it happen and despite the fact that I am one of the male members on here that actually gets a decent amount of responses on my posts and hear plenty through conversation even though the number of likes might not be representative of the actually "likes" I still feel left out. I appreciate everyone that reads my posts and sticks by me through happy and sad times. I love y'all. I don't even have any problems with the girls that might be heavy offenders because they seem rather anti-social if you look at their activity on the site over the past year or two. Some of them make a peep once in a while and are very sweet to me.
This isn't about disliking anyone. This is just saying that there are many paying members that want to see more than naked bums and boobs. I love 'em. I love a cute bum and I enjoy seeing boobs as much as any red blooded straight male, but there are many males and females that are straight members here and we really only get a fraction of that love because it feels like this site has become advertisement heavy versus communication heavy. Should we not be drawing more paying members in to support the models and photographers by offering them communication within the site as well? I'd gladly support some more Patreon or other sites if I could afford them. I've supported some already, but I feel like I'm paying one site to pay for another site and get more nudity... I don't really need the nudity. This is coming from someone who has been single over 8 years and I severely miss the touch of a woman. I cry myself to sleep sometimes because I just want to find someone who might actually love me for real. I look up porn on the internet. I enjoy what I see here and leave respectful commentary for the inspired moments.
I just don't want to feel like each passing day means less interaction.
I came here to be inspired. I came here to learn, make friends, find love (in friendship... or more), and find a community that I fit into. Suicide Girls was founded to bring together a bunch of "misfits", so to speak, and give them a place to be themselves and grow. The site has become so much more in some ways and has veered off the path in other ways. Some days I feel like I log on and I just see a hundred nude selfies and log off.
I understand lives are busy. I know everyone needs to make money to feed themselves and fund more shoots for this site. I just want to feel like part of the community not more like a dollar sign for other sites.
I admit I've started to consider departing the site again. I look forward to the sets coming in the next few months and even the ones coming 4 or 5 months from now from my friends, but it's hard. I want to see the work they put into these sets, but as much as I want to see these gorgeously shot set of truly beautiful humans I want to interact.
I didn't come here for the boobs. I didn't come here to be given advertisements. If I come across a few bucks I'll toss them your direction and support your endeavors, sure. That's cool. I've subbed to some snapchats and not even looked at them because I wanted to offer support and it was that simple.
It's up to you. It's up to every one of you. Let you voice be heard. What do you want from this site?
Finally, should I stay or should I go? Would this site even miss me if I decided to leave again for... a year... two years... four years?
I've received outside contact information from most of the people I care about and I'm sure a few more would gladly exchange information before I departed, but am I done?
Is SG done with xHeartSwornx? Is SG done with Xander and his extended commentaries and long musings?
I don't know. You tell me.
I love you all. I do. The people who read me regularly know this. The people who might happen upon this blog may likely know it as well. I hope you know it if you're reading this. I, honestly, love you with all my heart. It's not a jab at anyone. I would support each and every single girl on this site if I could. I would support my friends that are in pain physically or emotionally be it member or model or photographer.
Farewell for now SG. I am not gone forever. I will be back with a regular post (likely) tomorrow about @lady's Murder! sets so stay tuned if you want to read my regular type posts. This just needed to be said and today was a great day for that.
Xander ❤
