xevilxashleyx

ThankyouXinfinity to those of you that care, it's greatly appreciated, and wonderous to know I'm not alone when I thought I was.

However, things aren't so bad (but that's only because I've had a chance to talk about it with someone, and even though it wasn't the 'someone' I needed to talk about it with, it was good to be able to talk about it...) and I'm dealing just fine, thanks.
Yesterday, I cried lots while at work, but the more I think about everything the more it falls together a bit in my head, and even though I still get that icy-hot, panicky, terrified feeling in my chest now and then...I can make it go away. Usually.

I slept for just over 12 hours last night, and it was good. At least it kept my mind from wandering, aye? Today is going to be a busy day, as I've aparently got a ton of stuff to do here in preparation for the people coming sunday to look at the house. Another thing to keep my mind busy...

Today, I'm also going to the Fetish Fair in Boston - something I wasn't planning on attending, since Brian has the kids this weekend, but now...I guess that's irrelevant. Bittersweet, but irrelevant all the same. I'm going to miss his spawn to high hell and back.

And, speaking of Brian666, go and give him some kind words, please, as he needs them just as much as I do, methinks. And as always, if any of you bastards know anyone who can sing, please inform either Brian666 or Drumzilla, as they're still desperatly in need of one.

Have a wonderous day, lovelies.