Warning: This Is Going To Be A Doosy...
Another fucking wasted day. What else is new?..
Another pointless fight. More drama. And after it all, she hands me a christmas card from my father...with a return address of "somewhere in NH." What a jackass. And I can't help but feel like an asshole for taking the money [that he inevitable got from selling one drug or another] and throwing everything else away without looking at it. If I didn't need the money like mad, I'd send it all right back to "somewhere in NH"...
Why are my relatives so goddamned dysfunctional? Better yet: Why am I the exact opposite of it all?
Pressing forward...
Holiday stuff = still not done. No time to bake, since I'm working 12 hour days for the rest of the week, so that means I get to stay up all night and do it instead. It's getting to be lower and lower on my list of things "to do" and I'm not caring so much right now.
I feel like shit. Threw up blood at work, but didn't tell anyone. I will admit that right now, I'm feeling pretty fucking out of control, as is apt to happen when situations that are beyond me arise. The blood did not help.
Determination. I'm full of it these days. I think it's one of the very few things I have to kep me going anymore. Pathetic. Or is it? I don't care anymore.
Blah blah blah. I'd call this a pointless tangent, but I think that's redundant...
My bills are stacking up. Car stuff and credit cards and cell phones and other miscellaneous bullshit abound, and I've lost track of most of it. Mostly because I know that I won't be able to make all of them on time this month. Boo.
Sometimes, my life makes me angry beyond words, and there's nothing I can really do about it just yet...
Another month, I keep telling myself. Just six more months. One more year. You can do it, I say...
I'm beginning to think I'm full of shit...
Also: I just discovered that SG decided to automatically rebill my credit card for another YEAR of this shit without letting me know, even though I am NOT signed up for auto rebilling. So now, on top of the $80 I spent the other day on stupid holiday bullshit, they charged me another $48, so I get a fucking awesome $35 overlimit fee. FUCK!
Happy Fuckin' Holidays, SGland.
Another fucking wasted day. What else is new?..
Another pointless fight. More drama. And after it all, she hands me a christmas card from my father...with a return address of "somewhere in NH." What a jackass. And I can't help but feel like an asshole for taking the money [that he inevitable got from selling one drug or another] and throwing everything else away without looking at it. If I didn't need the money like mad, I'd send it all right back to "somewhere in NH"...
Why are my relatives so goddamned dysfunctional? Better yet: Why am I the exact opposite of it all?
Pressing forward...
Holiday stuff = still not done. No time to bake, since I'm working 12 hour days for the rest of the week, so that means I get to stay up all night and do it instead. It's getting to be lower and lower on my list of things "to do" and I'm not caring so much right now.
I feel like shit. Threw up blood at work, but didn't tell anyone. I will admit that right now, I'm feeling pretty fucking out of control, as is apt to happen when situations that are beyond me arise. The blood did not help.
Determination. I'm full of it these days. I think it's one of the very few things I have to kep me going anymore. Pathetic. Or is it? I don't care anymore.
Blah blah blah. I'd call this a pointless tangent, but I think that's redundant...
My bills are stacking up. Car stuff and credit cards and cell phones and other miscellaneous bullshit abound, and I've lost track of most of it. Mostly because I know that I won't be able to make all of them on time this month. Boo.
Sometimes, my life makes me angry beyond words, and there's nothing I can really do about it just yet...
Another month, I keep telling myself. Just six more months. One more year. You can do it, I say...
I'm beginning to think I'm full of shit...
Also: I just discovered that SG decided to automatically rebill my credit card for another YEAR of this shit without letting me know, even though I am NOT signed up for auto rebilling. So now, on top of the $80 I spent the other day on stupid holiday bullshit, they charged me another $48, so I get a fucking awesome $35 overlimit fee. FUCK!
Happy Fuckin' Holidays, SGland.
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i will never complain about my family again.
k, bye.