I feel as though the sky has fallen, and for no particular reason...
I just spent a good solid three hours writing the things that are going on in my head. One thing always leads to another.
An excerpt:
Today was a bad day, and I need a hug.
There is a certain someone out there that I would very much to like see. More soonish rather than laterish. And...the soonerish, the betterish, as I grow slightly [more] impatient with the excitement of it all...
What happened to my socks? It's the one question that's been on my mind all day, as I left the house in quite a rush this morning only to find when I arrived at work...that I was not wearing any. Much to my surprise, might I add. 
Today was my 'early' day, meaning that I got out of work at 2 instead of five. I'm not sure why, but I'm always scheduling 'fun' things to do on my 'early' day, even though said things are always right around five o'clock, anyway. Yarg.
I am tired. On top of that, this weather makes me want to vomit.
Today was an insanely bipolar day. 
Up and down and up and downandupanddown. Yuck.
Hugs? Yes, please...
Renegade beetles in my room. No thank you. Where did they come from? Well, meal worms, of course! It would seem that they change forms rather quickly, and it would also seem that my gecko prefers them in their soft-bodied in-between phase, just after wormhood and just before beetledom. Unfortunately, without eyes, she misses a few and then, wouldn't you know it, I have renegade beetles...
Bleh...
I'm on a mission for a gerbil. What happened to them? Didn't they used to be fairly popular pets? Now I can't find them anywhere, and the larger of my snakes, well he yearns for one...
Strange dreams abound, and I'm not so sure I'm comfortable with my forseeable future. Unrelated statements, but I don't care. I do it lots.
Case in point:
Who cares about rice, we should be getting it on.
My arms are stubbly. As is the rest of my body. Gah, I was happier when I had time to shave every day.
Melancholy, I be. Yar. 
Every day, my parents remind me why I'll never get married.
That's probably that only thing I'll ever take away from knowing them. 
And I looked down, and my mouse was on the floor. Who knew? Not I...
if you DO go tonight, have fun and dont tell! if you guys some how don't make it, and want to go with us on thanksgivin, that's rock some cock!
editted to tell you my eyeless gecko tale;
i made a homemade incubator out for a tank, water, and aquarium heater and another container inside it. the heater shit the bed on me half way through the incubation, and i didn't notice it right away. once i did, i got a new heater. but out of about 12 eggs (i think), 8 were infertile, 2 rotted, and one i broke open because i thought it was going bad, to find a fully developed living baby, (i felt like a shit head) and that egg's clutch mate hatched 2 days later, but with no eyes. a develpomental defect that i am pretty sure was caused by the dropand inconsistancey in the temp for those few days.
but nontheless she's fat, eating well and alert. i feed her with tongs whenever she needs some assistance.
this year i bought a new incubator, but they haven't produced any eggs. i think it's from the stress of getting their tank rebuilt and the addition of a new female. (not the eyeless one, she's caged seperately)
[Edited on Nov 18, 2005 8:22AM]
go look. i shaved. it's wierd.
is it too wierd?
k, bye.