may i just appologies for being such a wet blanket i really have been doing some thinking.

im pretty lucky.

1. have an an amazing girl in my life she she makes me happy. i get insucure and paronoid at time but im so stupid. plus i have take digs alot which im stopping ( shes my soul mate)

2. i have a job interview for vm and if i dont get who fucking cares its ther lose im an extremely creative person and they can suck my dick if they dont see that

3. im starting up my business yes its taking ages but ill slowly get ther once i find out how to make a website

4. im not one to have tons of friends but the ones i do hve are pretty special .

5. my parents are amazing they do soooo fucking much for me, im dead lucky

6. fuck im spoiled and i sometimes take it for granted but now i realise that im sooo fucking lucky

7. ihave a bastard of a horse and not many people have that

8. i do have a wardrobe that most people would kill to have.

9. i moan about my work being shitty but its not really yes its just a stop off but i really do work with a great team of girls and have a major giggle.

10. i get ugly days alot of them time and i moan about it or i dont want to leave the house but fuck sake how shallow is that i used to model in magazine and international campaigns and people would prob kill to do that.

so there you have it im being honest there is my 10 good things about me.

i feel so selfish that i just moan about how things are soo bad for me yes they are but there is much more shit happening in the world. plus my stupid negative energy and sobbing is totally not healthy because i do actuallyhave it pretty good!!!!

prob one bad thing thats wrong is that im to nice and usually get used oh and im pretty hard on myself nd negative about stuff but im SERIOUSLY changing because it not healthy