Saturday Apr 26, 2003

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about two weeks ago i watched my grandfather die
it really makes you think when you watch someone die especially someone you love. that was the first dead body i've touched. the coldness of his body seems so...well i don't know. i saw the way the color flushed right out of him and he just turned a yellow tint.
he was in a coma for about three days before he passed. so it was kind of better that way since everyone got to say the things they never got to say.
i always had this "positive" outlook on death like it's just a part of life and you just have to accept it. but i guess that's because the only people that have died that i knew i was never too close too. but i'm finding out now that i can't accept it. when i think about my grandfather and never getting to see him again it's such a painful feeling that i just stop thinking about it. i'm just in denial.
whatever
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apoplexy:
I'm sorry. I went through the same thing a couple of years ago with my grandmother. It sucks. The emotion becomes like a scab. You can't stop picking at it. Eventually though you get through it.

All you who sleep tonight
Far from the ones you love,
No hand to left or right,
And emptiness above -
Know that you aren't alone.
The whole world shares your tears,
Some for two night or one,
And some for all their years.
-Vikram Seth
fractal:
Both my grandmothers passed in the last 2 years, nearly 3 now. Both had been sick for a long time, and had been barely hanging on. I find comfort in that their pain has ended, and that they're in a better place now, with my grandfathers, both of whom I never met.

Hang in there sweetie.

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