xcdat

I don't quite no how to deal with painful situations, more specifically, how to deal with people who are in painful situations. My natural instinct is to ignore them, so I don't have to deal with it. I know that's wrong, I try to fight it. Then I don't know if I should refrain from bringing up the cause of the pain, or pretend it doesn't exist. I want the people I care about to know I feel for them, but I know most don't want to be pitied or whatever. I know... It always depends on the situation, I guess that's the real problem. There is no protocol. I despise seeing good people in bad situations, it breaks my heart...

That's got me thinking on another thing that has been coming to mind frequently of late. My reality is so distinct from most of the rest of the world, it's mind boggling. I don't really know what it's like to live with a child (a physical child, not a grown person who acts like a child, that I know)... I've never lived in the 'hood... I've never been rich... I've never been really poor... I've never really been a victim of a violent crime... So many parts of the 'human experience' I've never experienced. I want to feel what makes you you. What makes you think the way you do. Why you do that. Obviously it makes sense to you. Why doesn't it make any sense to me?

Yeah... I'm weird...

Thinking of buying an 8 game package for the Stars. Would good usage of my bonus.

What the hell should I be for Halloween? Any costume ideas? Any at all?

11 PM Update: Called my sister, she talked to my dad earlier in the day. The test results were good. Things are localized, so all things considered it is good news. Cancer is scary regardless, but this would seem to be very treatable.

Also, Dorkgirl, ScarredAngel, Cicatrix and I are going to the Stars game tomorrow night.