Something was said and a heart was broken.....the ones you hurt the most are the ones you love the most....
I interpreted something in an IM as rude....when in fact she was very busy and rushed off.....so instead of taking it as that...I left her a voice message saying wtf was her problem and she made me feel dumb etc etc(my tone was upset)....I have hurt her.....and I feel miserable for it.....
It was a side of me she has never seen AND it was directed towards her....she said it was unfair for me to only show one side(the good side I guess)...and now she has heard me be upset..the balance of everything has changed.......I am not a mean person ....I havent done anything but try to be there for her and shown nothing but love...but I AM human and along with that I am flawed...and with that I am seen to her in a different light now...a not so good one at that....she is now gone to take care of something and wont be back for the next five days or so....it will give her time to herself and time to reflect....I know she has been through a VERY tough time....and I have tried to be as supportive as I can....but...my big mouth couldnt have done this at a worse time....instead of being loving and supportive as I should have been and as I always have been...I pop off with a "wtf is your problem" VM....now the damage may be irreperable (SP).....But my heart still goes with her as well as my love and support.....at her request I should also think about what would be or what would have been.....I will do so....Hearing those 3 words from her are what I lived for everyday.....
I am praying everything will come out for the better for her ( and deep inside I am still praying that she will still want me by her side)
I interpreted something in an IM as rude....when in fact she was very busy and rushed off.....so instead of taking it as that...I left her a voice message saying wtf was her problem and she made me feel dumb etc etc(my tone was upset)....I have hurt her.....and I feel miserable for it.....
It was a side of me she has never seen AND it was directed towards her....she said it was unfair for me to only show one side(the good side I guess)...and now she has heard me be upset..the balance of everything has changed.......I am not a mean person ....I havent done anything but try to be there for her and shown nothing but love...but I AM human and along with that I am flawed...and with that I am seen to her in a different light now...a not so good one at that....she is now gone to take care of something and wont be back for the next five days or so....it will give her time to herself and time to reflect....I know she has been through a VERY tough time....and I have tried to be as supportive as I can....but...my big mouth couldnt have done this at a worse time....instead of being loving and supportive as I should have been and as I always have been...I pop off with a "wtf is your problem" VM....now the damage may be irreperable (SP).....But my heart still goes with her as well as my love and support.....at her request I should also think about what would be or what would have been.....I will do so....Hearing those 3 words from her are what I lived for everyday.....
I am praying everything will come out for the better for her ( and deep inside I am still praying that she will still want me by her side)
tubaart:
These things happen in any close relationship. The relationships that last are the ones that can accept this as part of the person (albeit a small part) and continue to love them. It's easy to be loved for being lovable. What matters is being loved for being yourself -- all of yourself. I suspect your relationship is strong enough to withstand this -- and grow from it. Hang in there, bro.