xbevisx

First true day of being here. Finally bothered messing with my profile. Lets see where this takes us shall we?

I had a odd weekend. I got all emo on myself. I have a habit of kinda locking a lot of my emotions away a lot of the time. Its generally easy and helps maintain my laid back facade. I'm generally the one that likes to be the strong one and be a rock for other people having a bad time. But now and then it all comes spilling out. And usually its like opening the flood gates.

This weekend wasn't quite as bad as that. I just felt like I really should be doing more with my time and that I've wasted a lot of my life and opportunities fucking around and getting distracted by menial stuff. It put me on a major downer.

Kinda feels silly writing all this. Anyway, maybe this blog will help me focus my mind and keep me on track with what I have planned.