So I got this girl, this woman and she well she loves me. I don't feel the same way and she knows it. I will never feel the same way. She won't give up. I don't treat her the way she wants me to. How can I? She has told me that some day she may disapear with no trace. We may have a good day or two but it always comes back to an argument. The other day I didn't come home and didn't call to let her know. I just didn't want to deal with the drama. Of course this was a bad call on my part. Yeah I wanted to avoid it all. I want the drama to go away. She says it would be fine if I tried. Well I have at least to the extent of my ability. I don't love her; why would I put so much effort into making something work that I don't want? I can't kick her out on the street. I do care about her. It seems that if I show that I care at all then she thinks that It will work out. That I should just try. The truth is is that I do care about her. I care enough not to go through all this arguing and yelling and screaming and crying again. I don't want that to happen anymore I am sick of it. Yeah I am selfish and have ego issues and whatnot. This will never work yet she won't give up on me. She says that I am mean. I am not very nice. That seems so unlike me but I can't deny what she feels. She says she no longer trusts me. I don't know how to deal with this. I want it to end but she says I will never see her again if she leaves. she makes me feel like I am such a jackass because I don't feel the same way that she does. FUCK I do care. I don't want to be mean to her. I don't want to hurt her. I need to be alone. there I go i i i i i i i well that is what I am about I guess i
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It's not such a stretch to hope for and expect that a dating relationship would lead to love and perhaps a lasting committed relationship. Many people are looking for that. If you can't give that, that's fine, but get off the fence. Fish or cut bait. Shit or get off the pot.
And...you often aren't very nice, just so you know. Date Akasha and get it over with.