Sorry I haven't updated in a while........thanks to all who made their condolences.....it was truly needed during this time. My grandmother is in a much better place now, and I know for sure that she is too busy to worry about us who are left to mourn her passing. Thanks again 
Now to what's really bothering me. My mom informed me that her and her boyfriend are going to be getting married later this year. A guy who is always over here at my house, always in my face, eating dinner with us...........and quite frankly I hate the s.o.b. . On the other hand, I want her to be happy...........and to make matters worse, of course they thought of that before figuring out where the children are going (I mean we aren't kids, but we live with our parents). I know that he will never be my father, and I'm glad that he isn't my dad.........because if he ever tries to pull some shit with me, I can always snap his frail little body in two........starting with popping that grasshopper head of his off (reminiscent to Jiminy Cricket).
AND, my mom told me that she has ideas about purchasing the my grandmothers house. Mind you......SHE USED TO LIVE THERE AS A CHILD!!!! My mom is 49, so that house is REALLY old. That house has about 1,000,000 health code violations, and enough mold, dust (and probably asbestos) to make a full scale model of the Venus Di Milo (with the arms). I wouldn't subject myself to that infestation she calls a home if you paid me.........and to have her soon-to-be husband there........yeah, that's an incentive. Half of me wants to see her happy again, because my dad was an abusive jackass towards her (and didn't even drink) and though I hate the new boyfriend, he really does care about my mom.
I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO.........accept it or hold a bitter, hate-filled grudge against him so long that it comes out in a screaming whirlwind of stabbings, acid torture, and decapitation.
ah well, life will eventually "do its thang". Still wondering what it would be like if I lived in San Diego..........
EDIT.........thought that I could save a bit of my tax return and have that go towards a comp........so far I have 500 left......and that needs to go towards some clothes and getting my van checked out...........but I'm kinda optimistic
Now to what's really bothering me. My mom informed me that her and her boyfriend are going to be getting married later this year. A guy who is always over here at my house, always in my face, eating dinner with us...........and quite frankly I hate the s.o.b. . On the other hand, I want her to be happy...........and to make matters worse, of course they thought of that before figuring out where the children are going (I mean we aren't kids, but we live with our parents). I know that he will never be my father, and I'm glad that he isn't my dad.........because if he ever tries to pull some shit with me, I can always snap his frail little body in two........starting with popping that grasshopper head of his off (reminiscent to Jiminy Cricket).
AND, my mom told me that she has ideas about purchasing the my grandmothers house. Mind you......SHE USED TO LIVE THERE AS A CHILD!!!! My mom is 49, so that house is REALLY old. That house has about 1,000,000 health code violations, and enough mold, dust (and probably asbestos) to make a full scale model of the Venus Di Milo (with the arms). I wouldn't subject myself to that infestation she calls a home if you paid me.........and to have her soon-to-be husband there........yeah, that's an incentive. Half of me wants to see her happy again, because my dad was an abusive jackass towards her (and didn't even drink) and though I hate the new boyfriend, he really does care about my mom.
I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO.........accept it or hold a bitter, hate-filled grudge against him so long that it comes out in a screaming whirlwind of stabbings, acid torture, and decapitation.
ah well, life will eventually "do its thang". Still wondering what it would be like if I lived in San Diego..........
EDIT.........thought that I could save a bit of my tax return and have that go towards a comp........so far I have 500 left......and that needs to go towards some clothes and getting my van checked out...........but I'm kinda optimistic