xaly

Well, here I fucking go. Starting over-AGAIN. Strange where I'll end up this time. Strange walking back into the past. Maybe it's for a reason. But I think that it's the circular reasoning talking again. I seem to fall prey to this one in more ways than I care to say. But I think most ppl do. So it's nothing to worry about. But then-I wonder how much of my past is going to catch up to me. Maybe that's why I'm going there-for a reason-to make peace with that place, to make peace with myself. But I'm really not going to make peace with myself. That will never really happen. No matter where I am, or where I go. So I really don't understand what the lesson here is, if there's one to be had. I need to get on with my fucking life, live it the way I WANT TO for a fucking change. If that's even possible. Get on with doing the things I've been trying to do now for such a long fucking time. Maybe this time, things will fall into place.