xalmostx

Im such a big wuss and the tiniest things upset me.
for instance, today is "party day" in FCU. some chick is leaving so they are having a farewell party for her. about a month ago i agreed to bake some cakes for this little gathering. unfortunatly i have a memory like a sieve and totally forgot about it until last night. on top of this i am proper brasic due to paying out 450 a month on credit card bills, after paying my rent and all other utilities i am left with about 100 to spend on me (this includes food, clothing etc). this month alone 6 ppl have left.... at 1.50 a pop for each collection thats 9... almost 10% of my money for the month. anyway back to the point.... so this chick at work calls me up and says

"did you bring in any cakes?"
ME - "no sorry i forgot"
Her - "oh for gods sakes"
Me - "to be honest i dont have a penny to my name, but i borrowed a couple of pounds from my mum this morning so if you want me add to a collection....."
her - "forget it" hangs up the phone.

So yea, thats made me feel like complete shit.
Being the baby i am i called my mummy, crying.
Mummy gets angry at women from work.
Mon cries more.
Mum calls my boy.
He calls me.
I cry more.
I leave work half day avoiding any kind of festivities.

Now i dread going back to work on monday.

I feel like such fucking trailer trash.