xalicex

ok.......louis time!

i cant believe how big he is already...he is growing so fast. my little boy is growing up already!

in the pic where brian is kissing louis' forhead you can see his two latest tattoos....one on his finger that says alice, ( his choice, i never even suggested it.....how sweet is that!) and a star with louis name under it.
































brians mum and dad have offered to help us out each month with extra cash if we want to look for a bigger place.....at first we turned them down.....but in the end we have decided that we really really need somewhere bigger, and we just cant afford it on our own, so we accepted.
believe me when i say that this house has the worlds smallest kitchen and the worlds smallest bathroom....its ridiculous....there is no storage whatsoever...there is none....so there is always clutter everywhere....the ceilings are very low down and the rooms are tiny.

it wont be until march time....but i cant wait to be out of here and somewhere nicer.

i think im ginally getting the hang of being a mum, the night feeds are still incredibly hard....but i feel like i can cope. its just really hard when brian is out all day and night sometimes with work....i feel really alone. ive had no help whatsoever off my mum even though she lives just down the road.....she doesnt come up to see louis.

things are getting a bit strained between me and brian, but dont worry, everythings fine....we are just adjusting to being parents.....but we are doing far better then i thought we would, but then i am a pessamist.

im missing all of you and want to know how you all are....i do manage to read your journals sometimes but i dont always have time to comment. im sooo sorry.

hope you all understand!

xxx