xalicex

first of all......thankyou all so very very much for all the congrats and well wishes you have all given me louis and brian. we all appreciate it loads!

ok so....straight to the details....

my waters broke as you all know....and i started to get contractions.....i went to the hospital and they wanted to induce me to give me a little help to move things along the next day.....but my body didnt need any help.

they started getting extremely painfull and i really needed some help....so we went in earlier than planned, and i got settled in my room.
the midwife checked me and i was 2 cm dilated and stil had some of waters intact....so she broke what was left, and very soon after that the contractions were unbearable......
after a few hours....i needed some pain relief so opted for gas and air.....oh what magic stuff!!!!! it really really really really helped.....but in no way took the pain away. i managed to get to about 7 cm dilated and i was begging for more help....i was exhausted having not slept in a few days.
i asked for an epidural.....which i had previously strongly objected too.....i didnt want one at all.
i was told i could have one in the next 45 mins.......but then all hell broke loose.
so many women were giving birth that night that there wasnt enough staff to cope....and they had to get in extra to help.
i was told that i wouldnt be having an epidural......there wasnt enough people to supervise it etc.....so i had to brace myself for a rocky road ahead.

i had been totally overdoing it on the gas and air and was throwing up all over the place, so i needed to see if there was something else i have have.
i asked if there was anything else i could have to help with the pain....they gave me a very small amount of pethadine....and it didnt even register....i felt no different whatsoever.


i was checked shortly after and i was 9 cm dilated but the uerge to push was so bad at that point that i was actually pushing without being abelt o stop it....its was more intense than i could ever describe.

so the midwife sugested i try to push with the next urge and see if we can make a bit of progress....it totally worked and i managed to get to 10 really really quickly.

i pushed for like an hour....and i was so weak that i couldnt do anymore....iw asked for help...they said i could have a ventouse delivery and at that point i was so desperate that i accepted.

it was all being set up....my legs went up in styrups, and it was about to begin when the next push made louis' head crown......so i didnt need assisted delivery after all....and witha few more excruiating pushes....my son was born.
he was placed on my chest and i just could not belive the feeling of relief that i had....it was over and he was here.

im so sorry for not being on here....it has been hectic.....at first i was really struggliing with feeding him, and he would never settle and so cried all night long with no gaps.....

we have made progress....and i think things are getting better....its so stressfull and im now full of a cold to top it all off!! but he is absolutly perfect.....im very proud!

im sure i will be on here more once things settle down a bit more....its all still brand new and we are all learning off each other. but i love him so much already.....i will cope with whatever this journey has to thwo at me.

brian has been fantastic....he has really tried to help take louis so i can rest, i have so much respect for single parents.....seriously....must be the hardest job in the world.

at the moment louis is feeding every hour or so....so as you can imagine.....im knackered.........at least he manages to go a few hours at nighttime without though and we get some sleep.

ok so ill leave it at that for now....here are some more pics.