i bought a packet of chocolate hobnobs for after ive given birth and have to stay in hosptial.
i cant wait!
ive listened to sooooo much music these last few days its unreal.....almost non stop. all different kinds too, i love a variation mix its the best!
brians lost more weight, im really proud of him, hes done this healthy eating thing right alongside me, so far hes lost a stone, its fantastic, hes really happy about it too. its been so much easier to do this with his support in it too, if he had just been eating kfc and choccy all the time i think i would have failed
or at least found it ALOT harder.
i havnt lost any more but i havnt gained a single lb since 28 weeks....which i think is pretty darn amazing!
i think i must be losing it but the weight gain of the baby etc is counteracting it, cos i have defo grown....alot...but no weight gain. im happy about it. it means that louis is more likely to healthy, plus he has been getting a good balanced diet with lost of nutriants etc.
went to the midwife yesterday, bit weird cos at the end she said right well....if i dont see you after your next scan ( cos i might be induced very soon after) then the next time i see you will be with your baby!
whoa!!!!!!
i wish she was gonna be there at the birth but its unlikely.
shes really nice, and ive become comfortable with her (well....as much as a total antisocial people phobic can be)
when i look at the big picture it really is unbeleive what louis has done for me without even being here yet.
ive had to face certain things in my life that i never wanted to face, or couldnt.
but now....ive got healthy eating down to an art, and will defo be keeping it up once he is born, i dont want him to have an unhealthy mummy. which in turn i think, well i hope....touch wood, that my eating disorders....while alway there in your mind......may just be somewhat controllable from now on. i think im finnaly free-ish.
ive also had to face people, and thats been hard. im someone who was so afraid of people and doctors that i would let and ailment sit and fester rather than go seek help. dont get me wrong....i am not cured of this....i never will be, ive been extremely socially phobic literally all my life, and it wont ever go, BUT.....i have managed to go to all my appointments, and get through them. and ive had way more than the average preggo women.
this whole thing has forced me to get rid of any last bit of selfishness i had and put it to one side....im not one person anymore, for the time being i am two, and i have to respect that louis is a person, and i have to look after him no matter how it might make me feel sometimes, or what i have to face in order to be a good mum.
lol im so boring these days....all i talk about is louis and being pregnant!!

ive listened to sooooo much music these last few days its unreal.....almost non stop. all different kinds too, i love a variation mix its the best!
brians lost more weight, im really proud of him, hes done this healthy eating thing right alongside me, so far hes lost a stone, its fantastic, hes really happy about it too. its been so much easier to do this with his support in it too, if he had just been eating kfc and choccy all the time i think i would have failed

i havnt lost any more but i havnt gained a single lb since 28 weeks....which i think is pretty darn amazing!
i think i must be losing it but the weight gain of the baby etc is counteracting it, cos i have defo grown....alot...but no weight gain. im happy about it. it means that louis is more likely to healthy, plus he has been getting a good balanced diet with lost of nutriants etc.
went to the midwife yesterday, bit weird cos at the end she said right well....if i dont see you after your next scan ( cos i might be induced very soon after) then the next time i see you will be with your baby!
whoa!!!!!!



i wish she was gonna be there at the birth but its unlikely.
shes really nice, and ive become comfortable with her (well....as much as a total antisocial people phobic can be)
when i look at the big picture it really is unbeleive what louis has done for me without even being here yet.
ive had to face certain things in my life that i never wanted to face, or couldnt.
but now....ive got healthy eating down to an art, and will defo be keeping it up once he is born, i dont want him to have an unhealthy mummy. which in turn i think, well i hope....touch wood, that my eating disorders....while alway there in your mind......may just be somewhat controllable from now on. i think im finnaly free-ish.
ive also had to face people, and thats been hard. im someone who was so afraid of people and doctors that i would let and ailment sit and fester rather than go seek help. dont get me wrong....i am not cured of this....i never will be, ive been extremely socially phobic literally all my life, and it wont ever go, BUT.....i have managed to go to all my appointments, and get through them. and ive had way more than the average preggo women.
this whole thing has forced me to get rid of any last bit of selfishness i had and put it to one side....im not one person anymore, for the time being i am two, and i have to respect that louis is a person, and i have to look after him no matter how it might make me feel sometimes, or what i have to face in order to be a good mum.
lol im so boring these days....all i talk about is louis and being pregnant!!
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Well that is why he is a good boyfriend, I would hope that if I was married and she wanted to eat health that I would at least try to.
That is pretty amazing, I'm proud of you.
I think she should be there at the birth, I think that should be part of her job.
Well when you love some one you will go out of your way and do things that you do not want to do to make sure that they are happy.