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ok so my first lot of cookies were rubbish!!!!!

i have no idea how i messed them up but i did, they were meant to be oat and raisin cookies but they tasted like shit and went in the bin. thats how bad they were.

so i made some different ones. choc chip ones, but of course without any sugar and i put some oats in to thicken them up, they were yummy!!! success!!

i only made a few so i will make some more in the next couple of weeks and make sure they look better this time and i will take a picture and show you all.


im getting antsy about getting everything ready for louis, and its driving me abit nuts. theres still some things that need to go into my hospital bag, like toiletries and things for labour and i just want it done and sorted. i honestly feel like im gonna give birth soon, one way or the other, i feel like louis is gonna be here sooner than expected. i dont think im gonna go past 38 weeks anyways, possible sooner. we shall see if im right!!!

the car seat base is gonna go in today and we are gonna practice putting the car seat in and taking it out so we are not fumbling around too much on the day.
his room is almost done, shelves are up and painted, nappies and stuff put away in his changing table, theres only a few more things to go in their right place and we are all sorted and ready for our little man.

im seriously freaking out. me? a mother??? i was told once that im not a mother type, that i dont seem maternal. but thats only cos im not crazy about other peoples babies or children. but i have longed for my own for years and years and years, and i never thought i would concieve cos i had been trying and nothing was happening, but then i got pregnant and when we lost her.....i was devastated. i sitll am. its soemthing you never get over to be honest. but the one good thing i gained from that whole horrific experiance was that i knew i could concieve, difficult it might be but i COULD concieve. so we tried again....nervously....and here we are.....louis has his little morning routine of hiccups and pushing my plate of cereal off my belly. and i love him so much it hurts, and its because i know how precious he is, and how lucky i am to have him, i hope his entry into this world isnt too traumatic and that when i hold him and he hears my heartbeat and my voice, that i can make him feel safe. thats all i want.


on a totally serparate note....this music video uses footage of the concert i went to a while back....i cant spot me though but its still pretty cool to see.





in other news......brians brother and his wife had their baby. a little girl.

did i tell you brian got two more baby ferrets??? they are super cute ill take pics when i remember.


im 33 weeks and one day now, and so far my pregnancy weight gain(cos it went down after i lost a load) is now 20lbs....which i dont think is bad really.

ill leave you with some pictures i took of my neighbours ginger cat, and one of our cats and a ferret playing.