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- So, I didn't sleep at all last night, because of nerves. I felt like I was going to explode. So happy and nervous all at the same time. Soon, my life would begin anew. Took my bags and comp and took a shower at 6 am. All so I could get there before 8:55am: her arrival time. Waiting patiently, I saw many couples come and go. The 'kisses goodbye', the tears, the long embraces. And I thought, "That will be us in a few mins. Only we'll be saying 'hello' and will never have to worry about goodbyes."

I was wrong.

Not only did she not show up, she never even booked the flight or hotel. I even talked to her last night at her work. "Everything's going to be fine hunny, don't worry. I love you." She's not answering any of her phones. She told the people at her work to tell anyone who calls that "no one has ever worked here with that name." How could I be so easily played? I've never fell this hard for anyone. Why? Why? Why? Jesus christ, why? I waited 5 hrs for her. Thinking maybe she had a delay...

No matter how much I've fucked up in my life, I don't feel as if I have deserved this.

do I.....?

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