ok...quick post before bed.
the rollergirls rocked the earl!
if you weren't there, then you're just going to have to catch me in hooker wear some other time...not that that's a hard endeavor. i had fun whipping people for money and tucking it in my cleavage. it was only my second time whipping...i really think i could get into it given the chance. i think i have a natural abililty of sorts...maybe it's the sado/masochistic musician in me?
earlier today, i felt bad and broke down into psychoctic tears before having panic nightmares in my sleep. i still don't know that i can keep doing all the things i try to do. i don't have enough time in my day. my family is starting to suffer i think. granted, the last few weeks have been more hectic and stressful than usual. i'm going to give it a few weeks and hope that it levels out. both kids have been real clingy, and crying that they never get to see me lately. my family comes first...so this situation needs fixing. times of transition are slways hard on everyone.
as a side note, my job really sucks! i do way too much for way too little...i'm sick of being used and abused. yes, i'm a masochist, but there is a point in all things.
the rollergirls rocked the earl!
if you weren't there, then you're just going to have to catch me in hooker wear some other time...not that that's a hard endeavor. i had fun whipping people for money and tucking it in my cleavage. it was only my second time whipping...i really think i could get into it given the chance. i think i have a natural abililty of sorts...maybe it's the sado/masochistic musician in me?
earlier today, i felt bad and broke down into psychoctic tears before having panic nightmares in my sleep. i still don't know that i can keep doing all the things i try to do. i don't have enough time in my day. my family is starting to suffer i think. granted, the last few weeks have been more hectic and stressful than usual. i'm going to give it a few weeks and hope that it levels out. both kids have been real clingy, and crying that they never get to see me lately. my family comes first...so this situation needs fixing. times of transition are slways hard on everyone.
as a side note, my job really sucks! i do way too much for way too little...i'm sick of being used and abused. yes, i'm a masochist, but there is a point in all things.
sometimes the greatest breakthrus come from the greatest breakdowns. im sure you will find your balance and peace. knowing is half the battle i hear. so maybe your halfways to a solution.
most jobs suck... um.. wait.. i hate to work so that could be just my opinion.