alright...i'm getting bad with this updating thing. i tend to that when i'm busy and stressed out...even if it's a good stress.
saturday i had 2 friends come over...had a nice little sex feast, but as usual in such situations, i was the only one who didn't orgasm. still had fun making the girl moan. i do have trust issues with all humans...i wish i knew someone other than my husband and kids i could trust completely. i do have a few friends i trust for most things. we all have our weak spots of personaility. makes us who we are...kind of like d&d character sheets.
went out to the star bar on monday night and did "you outta know" for kareoke with winter, hypermediocrity, timid, and geckogirl. i realized how over girly whiny songs i am. i really need to work on my kareoke repretoire. i want to learn how to sing angry, gritty, punk and rock songs. those are what i write...those are what i feel now. i hear her voice inside me, but haven't figured out how to translate it out of me.
worked the rest of the week away.
went to roller derby practice tonight. had fun as always, but i'm getting paranoid, and shy. i'm starting to feel like people there are breaking off into groups, and not feeling a part of things. i think i may need to spend time with people other than just during practice...in civilian clothes. we are, after all, still strangers.
yesterday i bought the first new bed i've ever had. it's an awesome futon....and very very comfy. we're working on getting our house in order so we actually have people over sometimes.
i'm off work tomorrow because it's my oldest daughter's birthday. i'm awake, making cupcakes for her classroom to eat, while everyone else in the house sleeps. so much i need to get done in my life right now.
2 more weeks till fantasm...who else is going?
saturday i had 2 friends come over...had a nice little sex feast, but as usual in such situations, i was the only one who didn't orgasm. still had fun making the girl moan. i do have trust issues with all humans...i wish i knew someone other than my husband and kids i could trust completely. i do have a few friends i trust for most things. we all have our weak spots of personaility. makes us who we are...kind of like d&d character sheets.
went out to the star bar on monday night and did "you outta know" for kareoke with winter, hypermediocrity, timid, and geckogirl. i realized how over girly whiny songs i am. i really need to work on my kareoke repretoire. i want to learn how to sing angry, gritty, punk and rock songs. those are what i write...those are what i feel now. i hear her voice inside me, but haven't figured out how to translate it out of me.
worked the rest of the week away.
went to roller derby practice tonight. had fun as always, but i'm getting paranoid, and shy. i'm starting to feel like people there are breaking off into groups, and not feeling a part of things. i think i may need to spend time with people other than just during practice...in civilian clothes. we are, after all, still strangers.
yesterday i bought the first new bed i've ever had. it's an awesome futon....and very very comfy. we're working on getting our house in order so we actually have people over sometimes.
i'm off work tomorrow because it's my oldest daughter's birthday. i'm awake, making cupcakes for her classroom to eat, while everyone else in the house sleeps. so much i need to get done in my life right now.
2 more weeks till fantasm...who else is going?
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What's fantasm?
[Edited on Mar 05, 2005 7:49PM]