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debbie downer post.

almost quit the ww site today, i know how to keep track of my points. when i enter in my weight it gives me a higher point setting, but i don't want it. i just want to lose weight. i'm still fifteen or so pounds from my worst but i'm also like 20 from would would be healthy and ideal

i would really like rehab to happen and be over with.
i would like to drink now. like now now. but that doesn't help with the for-mentioned problem. i had a nice day off, then depression started creeping in...

now it's just a bummer.

i feel like the black sheep of my family. for every step i take forward i take many more back. not even sure when and if i will be able to drive again.

sleep would be nice. these meds just are the pits it seems like.

life isn't bad though. it rarely is, i'm just in a shit mood and i'd like to drink it away.