If someone told me as recently as five years ago that I would be where I am today, I wouldn't have believed it. I try to imagine better times ahead, but can't realistically see it happening. I feel like everyone I thought I could count on is disappointing me. The truth is, that my actual disappointment is with myself.
Someone I respect very much told me that I'm a smart person. If that's true, then that makes things even worse. How can a "smart" person wind up in the kind of place I find myself in? I'm stuck. I can't seem to motivate myself to do anything positive or productive. I recognize the symptoms. I'm depressed, pure and simple, and it's getting worse. I went through this after my wife passed away. I went into therapy and eventually got better.
Now that the depression is staring me in the face again, this time for different reasons, I don't seem to have the will to fight.
So that's how I feel about my life at 10:25 in the morning on December 10th, 2008. Does that mean that I will feel the same way tomorrow? I don't know. As a matter of fact, I can't honestly say that I know a whole lot about anything these days.
Someone I respect very much told me that I'm a smart person. If that's true, then that makes things even worse. How can a "smart" person wind up in the kind of place I find myself in? I'm stuck. I can't seem to motivate myself to do anything positive or productive. I recognize the symptoms. I'm depressed, pure and simple, and it's getting worse. I went through this after my wife passed away. I went into therapy and eventually got better.
Now that the depression is staring me in the face again, this time for different reasons, I don't seem to have the will to fight.
So that's how I feel about my life at 10:25 in the morning on December 10th, 2008. Does that mean that I will feel the same way tomorrow? I don't know. As a matter of fact, I can't honestly say that I know a whole lot about anything these days.
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when your team needs 4 things to happen to make the playoffs and you can only control 1 of them (win the all remaining games), I pretty much rule my team out of the playoffs... can you imagine if we went 10-6 and no playoffs????