Two days from now will mark the third anniversary of the worst day of my life. On September 23rd, 2005 my wife, Annette, passed away. She was only 59 years old. We were married for almost 32 years. We had two daughters together. She was the perfect wife and mother.
I've been alternately sad and angry for a while now anticipating this horrible day. To say that I've been displaying behavior that's out of character is an understatement. I hate feeling like this. I hope blogging helps a little bit. I just want to survive this mess and go forward as soon as possible.
I've been thinking of how I want to spend next Tuesday. I love Mae-Ann very much. She is the proof that I've been able to move on with my life. Having said that, I would prefer to spend the day with those that have helped get me to where I am now.
First of all, that means my daughters. I'm seeing my younger daughter Tuesday evening. While my older daughter is in North Carolina, I plan to speak with her at length by phone. We have found the strength in each other to survive the loss of the person that has meant so much to all of us.
There's another person that played an invaluable role in enabling me to go on with my life. I asked her if she could spend a little time with me on Tuesday as well. She provided a bridge from where I was after my wife's passing to where I am today.
While we met in a very unconventional way, we developed a most improbable friendship. Through her, I found the inspiration to live again. While our relationship has taken several twists and turns over the about 20 months that we've known each other, I understand the impact that she's had on my life for the better. I'm not about to analyze why this person has had such a profound effect on my life. The only thing that matters is that she has. At times, I've referred to her as my lifesaver. She came into my life at exactly the right time. I'm very grateful that she did and that I was perceptive enough to recognize it. You know her on SG as Lyrical.
I'm flying to North Carolina on Friday morning. I'll be back Monday afternoon. I probably won't be on SG while down there. I'll be looking forward to catching up with everyone when I come back.
I love you all.
I've been alternately sad and angry for a while now anticipating this horrible day. To say that I've been displaying behavior that's out of character is an understatement. I hate feeling like this. I hope blogging helps a little bit. I just want to survive this mess and go forward as soon as possible.
I've been thinking of how I want to spend next Tuesday. I love Mae-Ann very much. She is the proof that I've been able to move on with my life. Having said that, I would prefer to spend the day with those that have helped get me to where I am now.
First of all, that means my daughters. I'm seeing my younger daughter Tuesday evening. While my older daughter is in North Carolina, I plan to speak with her at length by phone. We have found the strength in each other to survive the loss of the person that has meant so much to all of us.
There's another person that played an invaluable role in enabling me to go on with my life. I asked her if she could spend a little time with me on Tuesday as well. She provided a bridge from where I was after my wife's passing to where I am today.
While we met in a very unconventional way, we developed a most improbable friendship. Through her, I found the inspiration to live again. While our relationship has taken several twists and turns over the about 20 months that we've known each other, I understand the impact that she's had on my life for the better. I'm not about to analyze why this person has had such a profound effect on my life. The only thing that matters is that she has. At times, I've referred to her as my lifesaver. She came into my life at exactly the right time. I'm very grateful that she did and that I was perceptive enough to recognize it. You know her on SG as Lyrical.
I'm flying to North Carolina on Friday morning. I'll be back Monday afternoon. I probably won't be on SG while down there. I'll be looking forward to catching up with everyone when I come back.
I love you all.
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also, i hope yesterday was good for you mentally, physically and emotionally. i tend to supress a lot of my emotions and it's made me a very cynical person, and i regret having become that way out of habit. i hope you have a great vacation in north carolina, and recharge and reconnect with your family. sometimes you need to go back to your "roots" to remember who you are.
ALL THE BEST.