Life can never be perfect, even when amazing things that I never thought I would ever experience again are happening to me. I am writing this with bittersweet feelings. As I've written before, I am in a totally committed relationship with the love of my life, Mae-Ann. Everything she says and does shows me how much she loves and cares about me. The only thing she asks is that I don't hurt her by lying and otherwise deceiving her. She has had way too much of that from her soon to be ex-husband. He cheated on her and abused her in other ways. The lies and cruelty were severe, and hurt her terribly. She has turned the corner and is now showing unbelieveable strength. She gives me most of the credit, which makes me feel wonderful.
I realized that I had to make a decision concerning my relationship with my Goddess, Lyrical. I understood how powerful this relationship has been for me, and the tremendous attachment I have developed for Her. I also realized that if I were to continue the physical relationship with Goddess, I would be risking the one thing I could not stand to lose, my lover, soul-mate, friend and future, my Mae-Ann. I told Mae-Ann all about my relationship with my Goddess. Incredibly, she tried to understand it, as well as my devotion to BDSM. She told me that she accepted all that I told her, and was even willing to learn and indulge in the lifestyle. What an incredible woman I have found.
I understood that I had to end my physical activity with Goddess. Amazingly, Mae-Ann told me that she would be okay with Goddess and I remaining friends. I met with Goddess briefly yesterday. I told Her both verbally and in writing about what I felt had to be. She said that we could still be friends. I very much hope that this will continue to be the case. I care for Goddess so much as a friend. She has helped me to get to where I am today in ways that I have written about in the past. I have told Her that I would always be there for Her should She need someone to talk to or if She has a problem that I could be of some help with. I guess only time will tell as to what happens between us. I'm hoping for the best.
I realized that I had to make a decision concerning my relationship with my Goddess, Lyrical. I understood how powerful this relationship has been for me, and the tremendous attachment I have developed for Her. I also realized that if I were to continue the physical relationship with Goddess, I would be risking the one thing I could not stand to lose, my lover, soul-mate, friend and future, my Mae-Ann. I told Mae-Ann all about my relationship with my Goddess. Incredibly, she tried to understand it, as well as my devotion to BDSM. She told me that she accepted all that I told her, and was even willing to learn and indulge in the lifestyle. What an incredible woman I have found.
I understood that I had to end my physical activity with Goddess. Amazingly, Mae-Ann told me that she would be okay with Goddess and I remaining friends. I met with Goddess briefly yesterday. I told Her both verbally and in writing about what I felt had to be. She said that we could still be friends. I very much hope that this will continue to be the case. I care for Goddess so much as a friend. She has helped me to get to where I am today in ways that I have written about in the past. I have told Her that I would always be there for Her should She need someone to talk to or if She has a problem that I could be of some help with. I guess only time will tell as to what happens between us. I'm hoping for the best.
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rumpusparable:
A hard decision, but it sounds like you made the right one for you -especially as you and Lyrical can continue in friendship together. Sad that both couldn't continue, but if one had to change at least there is still warmth all around.
yenta:
You're a man with strong character. It's rare to find one willing to sacrifice something he enjoys so much for love.