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New post so much to talk about but never seem to have the time to sit down and write. Sooooo much pain in my life and it's not getting any easier. Im like an open walking wound. Losing my daughter and exwife at once really difficult to recover from. I know I shouldn't care because she was no good anyway but we had been though so much together for her to do the things she did and to make exit the way she did is just unbearable. She thinks were still married or that we'll get back together someday but then she always was a stupid white trash fucktard. She broke her oath and I took back the gifts I gave her period. It just sucks that our daughter has to suffer so much and so unnecessarily what'd she do to any of these fuckholes at the Laguna Grill or at the House of Blosers ( House of Sleaze). A small handful of good people and a big whopping helping of slimy fucks. For those of you just tuning in I will flesh out the details of this tragedy later when I have more time. I realize it must be difficult to follow the ramblings of my personal hell in midstream. Cant sleep. Nightmares about her and my daughter constantly. Well off to the gym. Of course there are some positive notes lurking on the horizon. There was this person that was kind and even though she was fully not my type we had a strong attraction to each other. I wouldnt act on it because I wasnt about to destroy my marriage over something stupid (boy was I an asshole) I never forgot about her though. She was special and as beautiful inside as out. Part of the in click but something inside her was aching to be set free. A million friends (in the sleazy phony casinoway) and she's alone surrounded by people paying homage. I think that she thought about me some in the year or so that we last so each other too... I heard she got married and well that's that but then the other day this hottie that knows her came into the tatoo/piercing place and I just got this strong feeling that something is going to bring us into each others orbits again. Plus she does some modeling and I think her and her friend would be interested in doing some art stuff for me I guess we'll see

On another note wanted to talk about 300 a little more. What the hell was the deal with the homoeroticism surrounding Xerxes? Okay so he's epitomizing this archpowerful and somehow decedant culture? Mel should have played a little closer to the facts its stil a great story. At one point Leonidis calls the Athenians boy lovers? WTF If memory serves me correctly the spartans were probably more about that then the athenians were such to the point that spartan women had their hair shorn short like boys and the men when they came back from training would mount them like other men or something. I liked the movie but mels schtick is getting tired. The christian imagery at the end of the film was out of place. Leonidis laying arms outstreched crucified like Jesus surrounded by broken spears... Whatever. I'm all for stickin to the basics but the villain is way too transparent and how could the Queen have succombed to such a simple ruse? She gives it up to this creep just on his say so? She's a Queen it's not like she's some white trash little slut of subpar intelligence that the king plucked from the gutter prior to her beginning a life of government assistance and slowly progressing genetic mental illness undoubtably marked by her having several wanksters kids. (Yet I loved her so much but hell you break an oath you take in front of the lion and I'm not gonna be standing next to you later she thinks she can fine print it like a lawyer unfortunately it doesnt work that way.) I digress.. whoops enough of the incoherent ramblings of psychedelic addled hippie off to the gym