wrigley

today i thought i was going to die in a tornado.

i did not.

so i've spent the last like 5 hours doing research, and even though i know i got stuff done, i feel like i didn't. i just want to get this project out of the way so that i don't have to worry about it anymore, even though my deadline isn't for about a month. towards the end i just gave up and started watching friends...
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ok, so who are you in relationships.....the needy one or the apathetic one? and how does that work out for you?

i'm always the needy one. it works shitty for me. i always care about people more than they care about me, and i always want them around more than they care to be around. i have this stupid thing where despite how many times...
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i feel so much better now that i've gone home and seen my family. my mom and i had a really long, good talk, and it was just what i needed. she has a great way of reminding me exactly how much i have to offer. i just need to get rid of all the guilt and pain i'm carrying around and open up again....
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so i'm at my parents house just hanging out for a few days. it's been nice. the pit bull has put on a lot of weight and looks way healthier now. i saw my brother and his gf off to prom. i punched my friend cj in the face on accident. i went to crystal lake and hung out with those kids. i re-measured my...
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today B2 died (recall previous journal entry about the death of the fish Beyonce 1)

best part is, B2 died without the other roommate ever knowing it wasn't B1

i hate dieting. but, it is a necessary evil for me. i don't even think it's me hating dieting, so much as me loving food way too much.

i planted lots of flowers today in pots on our balcony. it looks pretty and happy now. that makes me smile. today is spring cleaning day. i feel like i've been cleaning my room for like 228928310...
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i think i'm nothing more than a nuerotic bitch.

man, i eat entirely too much food.

also, i think michael is quickly losing interest because i've been so cranky and insecure lately. i need to get that under control, but it's hard when he doesn't talk to me and never wants to see me. i'm not sure what i'm going to do. i'm trying to remain calm so things can be cool again, but...
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dear god, so drunk last night. i think i might still be drunk, i'm not sure. next year jessica and i are living with the owner's son of the bar we always go to, so his dad just gives us pitchers of stuff, and last night he kept giving up pitchers of red bull and vodka. not really a drink you should consume by the...
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