Wednesday Jun 16, 2004

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ugh. so the boy and i have been talking for 4 hours.

all we've determined is that we have a connection and chemistry and are attracted to one another.

and he has a gf. so we have to "swallow" it.

and that we think this sucks.

god, he's made me laugh smile and cry more in one conversation than most people do ever.
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rumrunner:
Thanx for taking me under your wing doll
aye gotta get back to work mad
wrigley:
i can't do that, it's not playing fair.

Tuesday Jun 15, 2004

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note to self:

do not become smitten with boys that have girlfriends.

even if they were the nicest kisses you've had in a long time and you can't stop thinking about them.

no being smitten!!!! mad
sometrees:
smitten: To affect sharply with great feeling: I am smitten with a certain someone's beauty.

Monday Jun 14, 2004

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oh man, so hellix and the guys at New Life Tattoo had their 3 year anniversary party last night. i think i might be dead now. i smell like whiskey and my hair is sticking straight up.


Things I like:
drinking with friends
meaningful conversations with boys
laying next to someone looking at the stars
being with someone who lets me cry when i need...
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amelia:
I'm sorry I mistook your post..you did say however "when above boy." I just assumed you ment Hellix since he is the only one you out right mentioned ..well horseshoes is a really fun game if you learn to do it right smile
wrigley:
I want so badly to believe that "there is truth, that love is real"
And i want life in every word to the extent that it's absurd
I greased the lens and framed the shot using a friend as my stand-in
The script it called for rain but it was clear that day so we faked it
The marker snapped and i yelled "quiet on the set"
And then called "action!"
And i kissed you in a stye that clark gable would have admired
(i thought it classic)

I want so badly to believe that "there is truth, that love is real"
And i want life in every word to the extent that it's absurd
I know you're wise beyond your years, but do you ever get the fear
That your perfect verse is just a lie you tell yourself to help you get by?

Saturday Jun 12, 2004

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ok, here's the thing. am i that hard to date? are people that unwilling to even try dating me?

all i want is a fucking rocker that wears girls jeans, and has nice hair. that doesn't seem to be asking too much, does it?

if you are this person, or know this person. hook it up! come on, someone help a girl out.
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pixiepamela:
I want your boobs and other stuff of yours would be really fun. As dirty thoughts roll through my mind.
cedar:
there's plenty of boys like that here...but they're all to "scene" to talk to me... whatever

try indiana. i hear there's some great ones there. they would WORSHIP you...and if they don't...?
i beat ass. kiss

Wednesday Jun 09, 2004

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oh my god. i had the weirdest series of dreams today.

first i was reading a letter from michael telling me that even though we had cleared up the fact that we were both in this for fun and it was all cool, he was sick of me and though he could find a hotter girl that was a better fuck.

and then i was...
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pixiepamela:
this is the first time that I have seen your pics and sexy sexy girl you are. And who's say that you just can't be enjoy both worlds. smile
mattbavougian:
north on lincoln
east (right) on main
past shnucks
past solo factory
main eventually T s into Old 150 after it makes a steap curve to the left
turn right onto Old 150
go past Old Cross Road (stop light)
go past cemetary
Turn left into driveway on left jus past the MAYVIEW sign
the new life tattoos sign will be out at the end of the driveway
house is at end of driveway we'll be out back

Monday Jun 07, 2004

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things are dull in the c-u.

i spend my days watching court t.v. i'm addicted. and i wish i was a detective. there's this one show, i-detective, and they show you the evidence and shit and then they give you a multiple choice selection of what it means....i'm getting pretty good at it if i do say so myself.
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jimmyjoe:
i was just lazily going from journal to journal, totally hypnotised by the flicking monitor..., just clicking on names that were appealing to me for some reasons, number of digits, small letters intertwine with big letters, names that promess you heaven on earth, names that mean nothing and names that are so evocative, but also names chosen for their cleverness, their humour.....Yours jumped to me. It's a brilliant profile name smile

ciao, jimmyjoe kiss
lucky_16:
Mental Note: End killing spree when tomyfavoritescar makes detective. skull biggrin

Thursday Jun 03, 2004

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man, i think i got entirely too drunk last night for my own good. we drank for like 7 hours. i don't remember about half of it.

i haven't talked to michael in a week.
i don't remember the last time i saw him.
i was talking to his friend pat last night and he said that michael is enjoying being single since he's been...
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Saturday May 29, 2004

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i got a bike today. i named her esther. jessica named the back tire dennis though. it is my grandma's old bike. it is like 40 years old at least and is purple. i love it.

hellix also double pierced my lip today. i put pics up in a new piercings and shit folder.

jess and i made shishkabobs (is that how you spell that)...
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mattbavougian:
well you are self confident, and you like to show your boobies
x:
i just wanted to say i hope you feel better ... kiss if you ever need to talk feel free to call me love

Saturday May 29, 2004

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so apparently despite the fact that i was "penciled in" i got erased. perhaps next time i should request to be penned in. it sort of sucked because i was in a good mood thinking i was going to finally see michael, he's really dedicated to his research so a lot of the time he's in the lab. but when he came home and i...
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wrigley:
meds are kicking in and i cried it out with x and now i feel way better. about everything.
gofuserectus:
i like your journal, my first time here! may i be your therapist!? i llike cedar too, that's how i ended up here, checking out your site! wanna be frinz?

Tuesday May 25, 2004

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i thought i was going to die in a tornado again yesterday. the storms were really bad. carrabb and i hid in the closet. yes, i'm like a 5 year old.

i'm been scheduled in with michael for thursday. thank god. i'm running out of porn.

also, i had a fabulous hair day today. pics in the "dance party" section. look. NOW
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ojaeflo:
Take care and be safe, hon. kiss
applerecords1251:
Good thing you did not die.

I heart boobies!
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