oh my god. i had the weirdest series of dreams today.
first i was reading a letter from michael telling me that even though we had cleared up the fact that we were both in this for fun and it was all cool, he was sick of me and though he could find a hotter girl that was a better fuck.
and then i was in my living room sitting around and richie comes over with his new gf, and i was like what the fuck did you bring her here for. and then he gathered up all his stuff and was explaining to his gf how he had to show up out of pity because i'm such a crybaby and i'm still in love with him.
then i'm in a car with drew and his gf, and he's passing me notes about how he wishes he could be with me, but he's not going to dump his gf for me, and she intercepts one and gets super pissed. so then i go home and sit in the bathtub thinking about how my life sucks....and here's the worst part....i looked down, and i had no nipples, just huge gaping holes gushing blood!! i like jerked awake and the first thing i did was check to see if i still had nipples.
oh, and drew comes into the dream as opposed to my normal list of boys that don't want me because we used to date back in the fall and all of the sudden he just stopped calling and started backing off and all that shit. which is weird because we had a cool relationship, and he IMs me out of nowhere cuz he just got back from touring with fallout boy on their thing with blink 182 and taking back sunday and shit and he tells me he couldn't stop thinking about me, and it was horrible because he has a gf that he doesn't want to dump, but our relationship had nothing wrong with it, and it scared him so he left, and i'm so perfect and blah blah blah. and then of course i get all upset because he was the only guy that ever was ok with how needy i am and understood why and i'm thinking about all the nights just cuddling and watching movies and our first kiss and blah....because it's not like anything can come of it.
richie and i have stopped speaking because the gf issue is too much for me.
michael and i supposedly cleared things up, but we haven't spoken in a few days, and haven't seen each other in a few weeks.
being a lesbian looks better and better every day.
oh, best thing ever, i just talked to drew, and i'm like i'm pissed that you told me all that stuff and then just that's the end of it and you leave me here upset and you go off on your merry way with your gf. and he was like well i never suggested i would do otherwise, i'm really happy in my relationship.....i'm sorry, but if you're so fucking happy in your relationship, don't IM me and tell me everything I ever wanted to hear from a guy and tell me how much you think about me. he claims today that it was just because he felt sorry for me because he ended our relationship badly and I IMed him all the time (it would have been nice if maybe i would have been alive during some of these IMs because the only one i was around for was the one where I told him about 2 or 3 weeks after we stopped dating that I thought it was pretty shitty that just because he didn't want to date me we suddenly no longer spoke anymore.) thank you, drew brown, for making me hate my life just a little bit more.
first i was reading a letter from michael telling me that even though we had cleared up the fact that we were both in this for fun and it was all cool, he was sick of me and though he could find a hotter girl that was a better fuck.
and then i was in my living room sitting around and richie comes over with his new gf, and i was like what the fuck did you bring her here for. and then he gathered up all his stuff and was explaining to his gf how he had to show up out of pity because i'm such a crybaby and i'm still in love with him.
then i'm in a car with drew and his gf, and he's passing me notes about how he wishes he could be with me, but he's not going to dump his gf for me, and she intercepts one and gets super pissed. so then i go home and sit in the bathtub thinking about how my life sucks....and here's the worst part....i looked down, and i had no nipples, just huge gaping holes gushing blood!! i like jerked awake and the first thing i did was check to see if i still had nipples.
oh, and drew comes into the dream as opposed to my normal list of boys that don't want me because we used to date back in the fall and all of the sudden he just stopped calling and started backing off and all that shit. which is weird because we had a cool relationship, and he IMs me out of nowhere cuz he just got back from touring with fallout boy on their thing with blink 182 and taking back sunday and shit and he tells me he couldn't stop thinking about me, and it was horrible because he has a gf that he doesn't want to dump, but our relationship had nothing wrong with it, and it scared him so he left, and i'm so perfect and blah blah blah. and then of course i get all upset because he was the only guy that ever was ok with how needy i am and understood why and i'm thinking about all the nights just cuddling and watching movies and our first kiss and blah....because it's not like anything can come of it.
richie and i have stopped speaking because the gf issue is too much for me.
michael and i supposedly cleared things up, but we haven't spoken in a few days, and haven't seen each other in a few weeks.
being a lesbian looks better and better every day.
oh, best thing ever, i just talked to drew, and i'm like i'm pissed that you told me all that stuff and then just that's the end of it and you leave me here upset and you go off on your merry way with your gf. and he was like well i never suggested i would do otherwise, i'm really happy in my relationship.....i'm sorry, but if you're so fucking happy in your relationship, don't IM me and tell me everything I ever wanted to hear from a guy and tell me how much you think about me. he claims today that it was just because he felt sorry for me because he ended our relationship badly and I IMed him all the time (it would have been nice if maybe i would have been alive during some of these IMs because the only one i was around for was the one where I told him about 2 or 3 weeks after we stopped dating that I thought it was pretty shitty that just because he didn't want to date me we suddenly no longer spoke anymore.) thank you, drew brown, for making me hate my life just a little bit more.
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east (right) on main
past shnucks
past solo factory
main eventually T s into Old 150 after it makes a steap curve to the left
turn right onto Old 150
go past Old Cross Road (stop light)
go past cemetary
Turn left into driveway on left jus past the MAYVIEW sign
the new life tattoos sign will be out at the end of the driveway
house is at end of driveway we'll be out back