wrappedinplastic

Well im just getting off work... it was an allright night.. and then.. somone came in... i was kinda happy to see her... she stills looks oh so gorgeous as ever... and i was happy the whole time she was there....

Well when she left my heart stopped beating and i felt an emotion only she could give me as she walks away from me... my eyes shut close for a bit and relized what was going on.. i ran through the back doors into the kitchen and out the other door to the outside.. i grab a crate and sat on it... i cant believe im actually feeling this feeling... why was i feeling this way... i thought they were gone forever i thought i was able to live my life actually pretending that i was "happy"... but i guess i cant... i do miss her... and i do believe she knows that.... i do still love her... i would love for her to be back in my arms once again...

I just dont know what to do anymore... im not sure what to do ATM.... i just wanna drown myself in a bottle and forget everything that happened tonight.. i just want everything to go back how they were once was...

To be honest im scared of whats to come in the future... im scared that im just gonna lose it and that will be the end...

well i guess thats all that i have to say really...