Ok so for todays journal we have both pretty alright news, and some shitty news.
Some of column number A) Chris came over and I wound up coming out ahead ok. I made prolly 3-500 off him so thats always a good thing.....for me!
However the major bummer of the day was really last nightish. So she wrote me a real letter last night helping start to get things off her chest, so to speak. I am a large advocate for her speaking her mind, however Im not very fond of when she starts foreshadowing shes thinking about breaking up with me, i find that pretty unsettling. What would be funny in a cliche way would be if she wanted to have dinner with me tomorrow at a resturaunt she likes, if she wanted to break up with me in public to avoid me making a scene. I would just laugh in the meanest way if she tries it. I just realized as I was writing this that when she was writing that she didnt want to feel a deep need or longing and she has large barriers up still, she may be doing this foreshadowing to push me back a bit to intentionally make a little more space between us. Hmmm food for thought.
Some of column number A) Chris came over and I wound up coming out ahead ok. I made prolly 3-500 off him so thats always a good thing.....for me!
However the major bummer of the day was really last nightish. So she wrote me a real letter last night helping start to get things off her chest, so to speak. I am a large advocate for her speaking her mind, however Im not very fond of when she starts foreshadowing shes thinking about breaking up with me, i find that pretty unsettling. What would be funny in a cliche way would be if she wanted to have dinner with me tomorrow at a resturaunt she likes, if she wanted to break up with me in public to avoid me making a scene. I would just laugh in the meanest way if she tries it. I just realized as I was writing this that when she was writing that she didnt want to feel a deep need or longing and she has large barriers up still, she may be doing this foreshadowing to push me back a bit to intentionally make a little more space between us. Hmmm food for thought.