Do you ever just get the sudden urge to run away from everything? To just walk out of your life and never look back? I'm not talking about ending you life, just leaving it behind.
I'm sitting here trying to figure out things that I need to do. Trying to figure out how to get The Ones Left Behind to take off. Trying to figure out how to reach more people who might be interested in reading. Trying to figure out what the hell I'm going to do about this tooth pain that's either a cavity, a wisdom tooth, or both. Trying to figure out what I'm supposed to do going forward with my life. I'm trying to figure out how to fill this void of loneliness. I'm trying to figure out how to figure out who I am after 36 years of masking my autism without even realizing it. And so many other things.
And I can't shake the feeling that I just want to drop everything and run away. I want to disappear, to start over somewhere far away from here. Maybe not even restart, just keep running.
I know that I'll keep going. I'll keep trying to figure things out. But right now I can't shake this desire to just escape.
