I know that people get busy, get caught up in their own lives. But by the gods I hate that it always seems like everyone drops off of the face of the world all at once.
Not going to lie, it really saps the motivation to keep working. I know it shouldn't, but it does. I don't hear from friends or family much anymore. I still haven't gotten feedback from anyone who's agreed to read. I still need to find an artist to work with (haven't heard back in a while). And I still need to finish editing.
Now, this isn't a post aimed at anyone specific. So please don't take offense if you fall into one of those categories. I'm just venting. I'm venting because I don't understand how to fix it. I don't want to keep sending message after message to people in hopes of a response. I don't want to become a nag asking, 'Have you read the story yet?' every time we talk.
It's on my mind because it's important to me. It won't be important to everyone, or maybe even anyone else. I do understand that. But it's still so disheartening...
Also, to anyone on the autistic spectrum, I have a question. Especially relevant if you were late diagnosed. Have you ever found yourself unintentionally masking again? I was stimming more openly, and I was genuinely feeling better. But recently I noticed that I don't do it anymore. And I'm feeling a return of a lot of anxiety and general bad feelings. I'm trying to make a conscious effort to stim again, which is helping again. But I just... I don't know. It makes me feel more like an imposter as an undiagnosed autistic. So it would be helpful to know if you struggle in a similar way.
