Been doing some research. I've noticed some things in my introspection that made me suspect there might be an undiagnosed mental... thing. I don't know. The more I think about it, and the more I research, it's been making more and more sense. And a questionnaire on an mental health site kind of confirms my suspicions. Not that I'm likely to get a formal diagnosis anytime soon. But the long and the short of it is, I think I might be autistic. At least, somewhere on the spectrum. I tested kind of high in the broader autism cluster. Which suggests most likely Asperger's. But of course, it's not definitive in any way.
Don't misunderstand. I'm not saying it's a bad thing. In fact, I see it as a good thing. It's a rather large piece (that I had been missing) of the mental puzzle I've been trying to solve for these last few years. It helps me to understand my brain a little better.
While the exact nature of the thing is going to stay undefined until I can manage to see a professional (which is highly unlikely to happen), I'm at least in the more broadly stated neurodivergent category of people. For whatever that's worth.
Anyway, just felt like putting that out somewhere.