So, I've got a friend who I met online that I exchange emails with. I think we bonded pretty quickly over our shared mental health issues, and have been talking for a year or so now. In the last email I received from her, she mentioned that the tone of my message sounded happy. That took me by surprise, because I don't feel happy. I know that I still have issues that I'm dealing with, and that happiness is not really something that I see in my future. But thinking about it, I have changed. I don't feel as depressed, as anxious, etc. It's all still there, but I don't think I've been feeling it as strongly as I used to. And as badly as I felt, it's entirely possible that by comparison, I seem happier than I used to be. I've been taking an antianxiety medication for the last couple of months. I only really considered the anxiety relief, but it does double as an antidepressant as well. That could definitely be having more of an effect on me than I realized. Kind of sad that being told that I sound happy is such a strange concept to me. But it is strange.
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