Good lord man, the dust in my room is starting to get aggressive. I've been cleaning, and I got to a spot I haven't actually dealt with in years. As I clean, this thick layer of dust starts to kick up into the air. Not only that but there were also solid clumps of dust that just wouldn't come off. It was crazy. Seriously, the sci-fi channel could make a bad movie about the dust in my room, which at one point seemed like it was actively trying to eat me. The upside is that my room is looking better than it has in years. Sort of. You know you're doing a real cleaning job when it gets worse before it looks better.
So for the first time in years I'm actually thinking about putting together a Halloween costume. For a long time now I've had a fascination with the Steampunk movement. Strictly as an observer unfortunately. I just love the aesthetic of it all. Sadly, I have no eye for fashion. I've worn black on black as my color scheme for years and am finally starting to expand my wardrobe. Hopefully my buddy will be able to help, he's a theater guy in town for the week. I think he'll be able to help anyway.
I just had a long depressing talk with a friend of mine. It seems that while going through old pictures he found some of his dad who passed away recently and they brought back all of those emotions. Poor guy blames himself for what happened. We also had a talk about how sad we were last time we saw a friend of ours. He was one of the smartest people I knew, he had, has, so much potential. But he now works at walmart, has a kid, and lives with his girlfriend's parents. The sad part is that he seems content to stay where he is, when he could have been so much more.
You know, all we usually do is sit out in the car, smoke a few cigarettes, and talk. For some reason my family thinks that's weird. But I'm wondering, haven't they ever had friends they could just sit and talk with for a few hours? I though I was supposed to be the socially fucked up one, but I can do that and they can't. The way I see it, that makes me better off. You shouldn't have to fill the silence with bullshit.
In a moment of weakness and desperation I signed up on Okcupid last night. I know online dating isn't the same as it once was, I just don't see it working for me. I suppose I can always delete the account right? The weird thing is, after answering a bunch of questions they sent me an email showing geographically where my best matches are. Turns out they're all in Iceland. Maybe that's why I have such a hard time...?
Well, I've rambled on long enough for one night. Time to attempt sleep I suppose.
Who am I kidding? I'm not going to sleep anytime soon.
So for the first time in years I'm actually thinking about putting together a Halloween costume. For a long time now I've had a fascination with the Steampunk movement. Strictly as an observer unfortunately. I just love the aesthetic of it all. Sadly, I have no eye for fashion. I've worn black on black as my color scheme for years and am finally starting to expand my wardrobe. Hopefully my buddy will be able to help, he's a theater guy in town for the week. I think he'll be able to help anyway.
I just had a long depressing talk with a friend of mine. It seems that while going through old pictures he found some of his dad who passed away recently and they brought back all of those emotions. Poor guy blames himself for what happened. We also had a talk about how sad we were last time we saw a friend of ours. He was one of the smartest people I knew, he had, has, so much potential. But he now works at walmart, has a kid, and lives with his girlfriend's parents. The sad part is that he seems content to stay where he is, when he could have been so much more.
You know, all we usually do is sit out in the car, smoke a few cigarettes, and talk. For some reason my family thinks that's weird. But I'm wondering, haven't they ever had friends they could just sit and talk with for a few hours? I though I was supposed to be the socially fucked up one, but I can do that and they can't. The way I see it, that makes me better off. You shouldn't have to fill the silence with bullshit.
In a moment of weakness and desperation I signed up on Okcupid last night. I know online dating isn't the same as it once was, I just don't see it working for me. I suppose I can always delete the account right? The weird thing is, after answering a bunch of questions they sent me an email showing geographically where my best matches are. Turns out they're all in Iceland. Maybe that's why I have such a hard time...?
Well, I've rambled on long enough for one night. Time to attempt sleep I suppose.
Who am I kidding? I'm not going to sleep anytime soon.
I'm sure it helped your friend quite a bit to be able to talk to you.
Don't feel weakness or despair at online dating. I started maybe 2 months out of my divorce. It's so much easier and clean cut (for the most part) compared to real life direct interaction. I didn't know there was a geological feature on any sites, that is interesting, I may check it out. I seem to find a lot of people that I have things in common with, but over time, those qualities almost always seem to diminish and we turn out to be completely different people. Many people lie too, it's easier to do online. The prospect of sex makes one highly agreeable to much of what you have to say. I've experienced a lot of that, so disappointing.
I have mostly used Skout for online dating. I've met a couple of fairly cool people from there. I've learned though that it's very important to talk to someone on the phone before going on a date. The mind can create a completely different character compared to reality!