wolfwood1203

I haven't seen much activity from 'the powers that be' in years. And I remember the site used to do all kinds of things for us members and for the models. Now it seems like it's... are they letting the site die intentionally?

It kind of feels like it these days. Unless they're just really fucking burned out.

Took a Xanax last night for the anxiety. I realized a couple of things afterwards. First, I think I've been subconsciously masking again, which is leading me back to the strong feelings of burnout that I had been learning to deal with. I've been having to take them more often, which for me means one every couple of weeks when the anxiety gets too bad...
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I need something to change for the better. Because I don't know how much more I have in me. The state of... everything. My own issues... I'm close to being done. It's not where I want to be, but it's where I'm heading.

Damn it, looks like depression is driving again.

So... I've discovered a new issue. Apparently since unmasking, I'm now terrified of driving. I guess honestly I always was. I was just better at hiding it from myself.

Thursday night I got a call from a friend who does deliveries as a side gig. He got a flat, and was stranded, so he asked me if I could pick him up. He lives a...
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Well, looks like the podcast interview I mentioned is up on YouTube. If you want to see me talk about my novel, and mental health, give it a watch.

You guys are the first ones I'm telling. But I guess I have to do the social media thing and actually promote it now. 😅

Edit: It's on Spotify too.

So, I'm thinking about offering signed copies of my The Ones Left Behind for sale online. But because I don't have a website, or the money to get one started, I'm wondering a couple of things. First, is there any interest? And second, where could I do this? If anyone has any experience with this sort of thing, I'd appreciate any input you might have.

Didn't I?

Sorry about that. There's a lot that was, and still is, happening. It gets overwhelming. My brother and his kids moved back in, as I mentioned before. The clutter and extra noise and drama... it's an ordeal. And I had to clean out my old room, something I've been putting off for years, so that my nephew can have a room. In doing...
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I get that it's kind of how it works in cases like mine. But I feel like I've become more autistic since finding out that I'm autistic. That might not make sense to a lot of you. But I know a few of you probably know what I mean. It's kind of frustrating, to be perfectly honest. But I'm working on things. I just did...
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I seriously can't win with this fucking autism. When my brother and the kids moved out a year ago, I was kind of devastated. First, I was going to miss the kids. Second, my routines went to shit after that drastic change.

Now, a year later, they just moved back in. I should be happy. But I got so used to the routine after they...
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Have you all seen this movie yet? I was a bit curious about it after someone posted about it in a forum for the game Stray (amazing game, by the way). Then someone on threads posted about it, and I decided to give it a watch.

There is no dialogue, only animal sounds. But somehow they still tell this amazing story of survival and camaraderie....
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...if this will come back to bite me in the ass.

I'm trying to keep my mother out of my life. Not entirely no contact, but as close as I can manage without drawing suspicion. Basic reason? Nobody needs a toxic narcissist in their life. Especially when distancing yourself from them helps the healing.

But my new situation of trying to generate a social media...
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