Kiki and I went to Maxwell Street Days today (big outdoor shopping thing for stores downtown, happens once a year in the summer). I ended up spending more than I thought I would, but I got a bunch of stuff I was planning to get eventually and didn't do like last time I went shopping and got a bunch of accessories but no clothes.
I got:
one mini skirt
garter belt
liter bottles Biolage shampoo and conditioner for color treated hair
kitty shoes
Buddha statue
Mints, for free
The Buddha statue was awesome because I was walking by the Knucklehead's stand, and first this guy who's working there is just like, "Here, take this mints; I don't want them." So I did. And then I was looking at this Buddha figure, because I really wanted one and like everyone I've known has had one except me, and then I was walking away because it was $20 and this other guy who was woking was like "How come you didn't get that?" and I'm like "It's too expensive," so he's like "How much do you think it should be?" and so I said a penny, joking like, and then I said $10, and then he said "How about $5?" So he sold it to me for $5. It's not like it's marble or something, but it's not really shoddy and it glows in the dark. I put it next to my antique brass dragon incense burner that's from Japan.
I finally dyed my hair. It's blue and green and yellow. I like it. I also cleaning my apartment today like I'm supposed to do. I need to scoop the litterbox every day.
Today was good because Kiki and I went shopping and then I had chores to do so she went home and I came over at like 9:30, and then we walked up to the graveyard by the asylum, but we were too chicken to go in the forest, so we just walked around the old asylum and went sort of near the graveyard. I think they remodeled the graveyard, because when I was up there with Neil a couple weeks ago, I couldn't find the dead baby graveyard, and we walked around for an hour looking for it. It's just gone. So anyway, then we went back to Kiki's and sat around for a while and watched the end of Saturday Night Frights, and then I called Neil since neither of us have a car and the buses stop running at 10:30 on Saturdays because they're retarded, but then Neil couldn't really do anything since he had to work at 9 the next morning, and I felt like an ass calling him to get a ride home even though we were inviting him to do stuff, and he sounded kind of pissed off on the phone anyway. So then I took a cab home, which I need to stop doing because otherwise I'm never going to pay off my credit card. And yeah they raised my limit to $1000 now, and in August Kiki and I are taking our big shopping trip so I might end up putting more on it then, and I almost definitely will for Christmas, but I'd still like to just have it all paid off. I just got or bought a bunch of the things on my "to buy" list for clothes, so maybe I won't have to put stuff on it for August and I could actually pay it for before like November and then charge a bunch again for Christmas and pay that off. Well, anyway, I took a cab home, but while I was still at Kiki's, Nate was online and Vash was over there and they were all drinking and they wanted us to come over, but I had just called for the cab, and Kiki didn't really want to so she stayed home. She thinks that Nate and her are going to break up soon. We talked about that, or well, she talked about it and I listened like I'm supposed to. On the one hand, I feel bad, but on the other hand, now I actually get to see her because whenever she dates anyone, she spends all her time with them and never does anything with anyone else. Well, I have my own theories on how Kiki should do things in relationships and with Nate, but I didn't say anything and I just listened and didn't give advice. Listening is much better to do. People like it much better, and then you get to find out all kinds of stuff. I really should do that more. So anyway, now I'm home. I'm proud of myself because I did stuff with one of my friends instead of with Neil, and I didn't have to do any drugs. Most of the times I see people, there are always drugs. Like I'm incapable of social stuff without drugs, and I like drugs, but it can just annoying that I never see anyone unless we're all on something.
I never talk to Nate or Vash anymore. I used to be much better friends with guys, but now most of my friends are girls. Like it went girls, guys, girls. I should talk to Vash more at least because he's 21 so he can buy me stuff, but then I'm trying to do other drugs instead of alcohol, and anyway Neil is 21 in August, and I could probably call his friend Becky if I had to because she's like 23. When I move (28 days away!), I'm sure I'll see people more since Vash is Liv's boyfriend, and Amanda parties all the time, so I'll be able to get stuff, and I'll be able to see people if I want, since they'll be around, but if I don't want to, I can just go in my room or something. I almost never call people, and lately I really haven't felt like seeing anything larger than a couple people at a time. But when I live with other people, I won't have to call people, which I'm really bad at, because they'll probably just be there, so that's nice, because then I don't look as unfriendly. It's not that I hate my friends, it's just that I don't feel like seeing a lot of people. I don't like big groups anyway. I wish I could just go out to clubs. I'd rather just go to some big crowded place with a couple people and just sit around there, but I can't so there's pretty much just fucking house parties or coffee houses, and you can't drink there. I could maybe go to Bluefin, but I'd have to go in there and casually talk to Sean about it, and I don't know if he'd let me and a friend in, or if anyone would even want to go. I'd pretty much just want to go with Kiki. Like there are so many places I'd like to hang out, and I wouldn't even have to drink since drinks are like $15 anyway, but I can't go anywhere.
I haven't had a best friend in a long time. Jessica was my last best friend, but we grew apart even when she still lived in Madison. She was supposed to come down sometime this summer, but now it's getting kind of late in the summer and I'm getting ready to move and stuff. I should call her. I haven't talked to her in forever. Her and her boyfriend came down here for a couple days in like February. That was all right. I'm just afraid she's going to end up stuck in Green Bay forever. When we were like 12, she was always going to move to L.A. and just party all the time or something, but now it's like she's just stuck up there in Green Bay, and she's going to be there for the rest of her life, which would really suck.
I should probably go to bed now. I hope Neil wasn't really mad about my calling him. Nate's got his dad's van so hopefully we can finally move that sleeper sofa out of Kiki's mom's garage and into my apartment. And maybe we'll finally get to do those other shrooms tomorrow so we can find out if the shit from Becky is any good. I would really like to get some speed, but the way I figure, it's a seasonal drug around here because people do it to stay up and study, so that's why I could always get it in the fall and I can't get it now. I haven't been like super into doing lots of drugs lately. I'm trying to switch over to smoking pot and doing just other drugs instead of drinking, even though they're more expensive, because alcohol has such a short buzz, and then you come down all fast and you just want to sleep, and you feel all icky the next day, and people never get violent when they're high but they do when they're drunk, and then you look at a lot of heavy drinkers from like Ireland and shit, and they all look like they're like 50 when they're 25 because they drink so much. Not that other drugs are healthy, but alcohol is definitely not one of the healthier drugs. And partially I'm just trying to do less drugs because I just feel like I can't be around people without drugs, partially just the way I am, like I can't stand people unless I'm something, but also partially like I feel like I can't just call someone to go see a movie, like we have to smoke or drink or something. And I'd like to feel free to just do things and not *have* to do drugs all the time.
I really should go to bed. I got a lot done in the last couple days but I still have a lot to do tomorrow.
I got:
one mini skirt
garter belt
liter bottles Biolage shampoo and conditioner for color treated hair
kitty shoes
Buddha statue
Mints, for free
The Buddha statue was awesome because I was walking by the Knucklehead's stand, and first this guy who's working there is just like, "Here, take this mints; I don't want them." So I did. And then I was looking at this Buddha figure, because I really wanted one and like everyone I've known has had one except me, and then I was walking away because it was $20 and this other guy who was woking was like "How come you didn't get that?" and I'm like "It's too expensive," so he's like "How much do you think it should be?" and so I said a penny, joking like, and then I said $10, and then he said "How about $5?" So he sold it to me for $5. It's not like it's marble or something, but it's not really shoddy and it glows in the dark. I put it next to my antique brass dragon incense burner that's from Japan.
I finally dyed my hair. It's blue and green and yellow. I like it. I also cleaning my apartment today like I'm supposed to do. I need to scoop the litterbox every day.
Today was good because Kiki and I went shopping and then I had chores to do so she went home and I came over at like 9:30, and then we walked up to the graveyard by the asylum, but we were too chicken to go in the forest, so we just walked around the old asylum and went sort of near the graveyard. I think they remodeled the graveyard, because when I was up there with Neil a couple weeks ago, I couldn't find the dead baby graveyard, and we walked around for an hour looking for it. It's just gone. So anyway, then we went back to Kiki's and sat around for a while and watched the end of Saturday Night Frights, and then I called Neil since neither of us have a car and the buses stop running at 10:30 on Saturdays because they're retarded, but then Neil couldn't really do anything since he had to work at 9 the next morning, and I felt like an ass calling him to get a ride home even though we were inviting him to do stuff, and he sounded kind of pissed off on the phone anyway. So then I took a cab home, which I need to stop doing because otherwise I'm never going to pay off my credit card. And yeah they raised my limit to $1000 now, and in August Kiki and I are taking our big shopping trip so I might end up putting more on it then, and I almost definitely will for Christmas, but I'd still like to just have it all paid off. I just got or bought a bunch of the things on my "to buy" list for clothes, so maybe I won't have to put stuff on it for August and I could actually pay it for before like November and then charge a bunch again for Christmas and pay that off. Well, anyway, I took a cab home, but while I was still at Kiki's, Nate was online and Vash was over there and they were all drinking and they wanted us to come over, but I had just called for the cab, and Kiki didn't really want to so she stayed home. She thinks that Nate and her are going to break up soon. We talked about that, or well, she talked about it and I listened like I'm supposed to. On the one hand, I feel bad, but on the other hand, now I actually get to see her because whenever she dates anyone, she spends all her time with them and never does anything with anyone else. Well, I have my own theories on how Kiki should do things in relationships and with Nate, but I didn't say anything and I just listened and didn't give advice. Listening is much better to do. People like it much better, and then you get to find out all kinds of stuff. I really should do that more. So anyway, now I'm home. I'm proud of myself because I did stuff with one of my friends instead of with Neil, and I didn't have to do any drugs. Most of the times I see people, there are always drugs. Like I'm incapable of social stuff without drugs, and I like drugs, but it can just annoying that I never see anyone unless we're all on something.
I never talk to Nate or Vash anymore. I used to be much better friends with guys, but now most of my friends are girls. Like it went girls, guys, girls. I should talk to Vash more at least because he's 21 so he can buy me stuff, but then I'm trying to do other drugs instead of alcohol, and anyway Neil is 21 in August, and I could probably call his friend Becky if I had to because she's like 23. When I move (28 days away!), I'm sure I'll see people more since Vash is Liv's boyfriend, and Amanda parties all the time, so I'll be able to get stuff, and I'll be able to see people if I want, since they'll be around, but if I don't want to, I can just go in my room or something. I almost never call people, and lately I really haven't felt like seeing anything larger than a couple people at a time. But when I live with other people, I won't have to call people, which I'm really bad at, because they'll probably just be there, so that's nice, because then I don't look as unfriendly. It's not that I hate my friends, it's just that I don't feel like seeing a lot of people. I don't like big groups anyway. I wish I could just go out to clubs. I'd rather just go to some big crowded place with a couple people and just sit around there, but I can't so there's pretty much just fucking house parties or coffee houses, and you can't drink there. I could maybe go to Bluefin, but I'd have to go in there and casually talk to Sean about it, and I don't know if he'd let me and a friend in, or if anyone would even want to go. I'd pretty much just want to go with Kiki. Like there are so many places I'd like to hang out, and I wouldn't even have to drink since drinks are like $15 anyway, but I can't go anywhere.
I haven't had a best friend in a long time. Jessica was my last best friend, but we grew apart even when she still lived in Madison. She was supposed to come down sometime this summer, but now it's getting kind of late in the summer and I'm getting ready to move and stuff. I should call her. I haven't talked to her in forever. Her and her boyfriend came down here for a couple days in like February. That was all right. I'm just afraid she's going to end up stuck in Green Bay forever. When we were like 12, she was always going to move to L.A. and just party all the time or something, but now it's like she's just stuck up there in Green Bay, and she's going to be there for the rest of her life, which would really suck.
I should probably go to bed now. I hope Neil wasn't really mad about my calling him. Nate's got his dad's van so hopefully we can finally move that sleeper sofa out of Kiki's mom's garage and into my apartment. And maybe we'll finally get to do those other shrooms tomorrow so we can find out if the shit from Becky is any good. I would really like to get some speed, but the way I figure, it's a seasonal drug around here because people do it to stay up and study, so that's why I could always get it in the fall and I can't get it now. I haven't been like super into doing lots of drugs lately. I'm trying to switch over to smoking pot and doing just other drugs instead of drinking, even though they're more expensive, because alcohol has such a short buzz, and then you come down all fast and you just want to sleep, and you feel all icky the next day, and people never get violent when they're high but they do when they're drunk, and then you look at a lot of heavy drinkers from like Ireland and shit, and they all look like they're like 50 when they're 25 because they drink so much. Not that other drugs are healthy, but alcohol is definitely not one of the healthier drugs. And partially I'm just trying to do less drugs because I just feel like I can't be around people without drugs, partially just the way I am, like I can't stand people unless I'm something, but also partially like I feel like I can't just call someone to go see a movie, like we have to smoke or drink or something. And I'd like to feel free to just do things and not *have* to do drugs all the time.
I really should go to bed. I got a lot done in the last couple days but I still have a lot to do tomorrow.
ovida:
Mmm, shopping and hair dying...and garter belts...and cheap Buddha...YAY!!