NO PARTY! YAAAAAAAAAAAAAY!!!!!!!!!
And I'm sure everyone is off having a better time without me.
Neil and I went out to Ella's Deli, and then we came back and wandered around campus for a while with Pansy and I explained Harry Potter stuff and he knows a little about it so we put all our mutual friends into the Houses.
Slytherin - Me (of course; Slytherin in the HOUSE), Neil, Vash (Cal would be in Slytherin but he's too lazy so he'd drop out, Vash too, probably)
Gryyfindor - Nate
Ravenclaw - Anthony
Hufflepuff - Liv, Kiki (Kiki could also sort of be in Slytherin), Melanie, Becky
And then we came back here and made out for a long time and I tried to jack him off but I could not fucking get him to come. Then we watched the cool/hilarious CGI monster animal shows on Animal Planet and then he had to go home because he has to work at 8 am at the bakery. I like him more every time I see him. Some things still unnerve me though, like how he said he has plain white socks and I have cool socks (my socks are cool though), and how he asked me about any places to get a big, kick-ass pair of knee-high, or well, not short like combat boots, style boots. And that's all stereotypical shit, but combined with the fact that I couldn't get him off, it's unnerving. But then, in a lot of other ways he seems straight, and Vash is into clothes and boots and stuff and I know he's not gay, and so are a lot of other guys I know and they're not gay either. And he seemed into stuff, even if I couldn't get him off, which could be due to other things. I really should just ask him, but I can never find the right time. I really like him and I overthink things too much so that ruins it a bit, but I like him more each time I see him, and things have been just nice and comfortable even with all my obsessing and anxiety, because of which I have now decided that I have General Anxiety Disorder besides probably some other stuff. There's a UW study coming up about General Anxiety Disorder, and I'd like to participate in but I'm going to be starting summer school next week so I don't know if I'd have the time to go in for evalutions. I should look into Taoism more. I don't want medication; I don't like the thought of pills controlling me.
And I went to get my text books today but the professor never ordered any so now I have to try to email him/her and find out what we're supposed to buy.
Since I know some of you know, where do I get Harry Potter clothes, like cosplay style stuff? Is there ever Harry Potter stuff at conventioney things, and are there in Wisconsin?
--Edit--
I finally figured out one thing that bugs me about Neil, like that he could be gay. We're walking, and there's this guy in front of us in the ugliest shirt ever, and Neil says something like "that guy is wearing the ugliest shirt ever" and then we just make fun of him for a couple minutes. Stuff like that, like stuff catty girls would say. But then, I know guys who'd say that too, and girls who wouldn't even notice, and Vash and Cal have gone through my FRUiTs book commenting on who looks hot and who looks freaky, and they're not gay, and most of the guys I know at least care how they look and like to look a certain way. I don't like going by stereotypical shit but a lot of that shit is true. But then when we're making out and stuff, it feels like right, like I'd figure if he was gay I'd be able to tell because something just wouldn't feel right, but it's not like that. I know I should ask him. This is mostly all because I have anxiety disorder. Like right now I feel really anxious again from talking about this is.
And I'm sure everyone is off having a better time without me.
Neil and I went out to Ella's Deli, and then we came back and wandered around campus for a while with Pansy and I explained Harry Potter stuff and he knows a little about it so we put all our mutual friends into the Houses.
Slytherin - Me (of course; Slytherin in the HOUSE), Neil, Vash (Cal would be in Slytherin but he's too lazy so he'd drop out, Vash too, probably)
Gryyfindor - Nate
Ravenclaw - Anthony
Hufflepuff - Liv, Kiki (Kiki could also sort of be in Slytherin), Melanie, Becky
And then we came back here and made out for a long time and I tried to jack him off but I could not fucking get him to come. Then we watched the cool/hilarious CGI monster animal shows on Animal Planet and then he had to go home because he has to work at 8 am at the bakery. I like him more every time I see him. Some things still unnerve me though, like how he said he has plain white socks and I have cool socks (my socks are cool though), and how he asked me about any places to get a big, kick-ass pair of knee-high, or well, not short like combat boots, style boots. And that's all stereotypical shit, but combined with the fact that I couldn't get him off, it's unnerving. But then, in a lot of other ways he seems straight, and Vash is into clothes and boots and stuff and I know he's not gay, and so are a lot of other guys I know and they're not gay either. And he seemed into stuff, even if I couldn't get him off, which could be due to other things. I really should just ask him, but I can never find the right time. I really like him and I overthink things too much so that ruins it a bit, but I like him more each time I see him, and things have been just nice and comfortable even with all my obsessing and anxiety, because of which I have now decided that I have General Anxiety Disorder besides probably some other stuff. There's a UW study coming up about General Anxiety Disorder, and I'd like to participate in but I'm going to be starting summer school next week so I don't know if I'd have the time to go in for evalutions. I should look into Taoism more. I don't want medication; I don't like the thought of pills controlling me.
And I went to get my text books today but the professor never ordered any so now I have to try to email him/her and find out what we're supposed to buy.
Since I know some of you know, where do I get Harry Potter clothes, like cosplay style stuff? Is there ever Harry Potter stuff at conventioney things, and are there in Wisconsin?
--Edit--
I finally figured out one thing that bugs me about Neil, like that he could be gay. We're walking, and there's this guy in front of us in the ugliest shirt ever, and Neil says something like "that guy is wearing the ugliest shirt ever" and then we just make fun of him for a couple minutes. Stuff like that, like stuff catty girls would say. But then, I know guys who'd say that too, and girls who wouldn't even notice, and Vash and Cal have gone through my FRUiTs book commenting on who looks hot and who looks freaky, and they're not gay, and most of the guys I know at least care how they look and like to look a certain way. I don't like going by stereotypical shit but a lot of that shit is true. But then when we're making out and stuff, it feels like right, like I'd figure if he was gay I'd be able to tell because something just wouldn't feel right, but it's not like that. I know I should ask him. This is mostly all because I have anxiety disorder. Like right now I feel really anxious again from talking about this is.