I am the man who, if able, will be there
there to support, there to uphold, there to care
a friendly shoulder or shoulder to cry upon, in equal measure
years gone by, I did this often - and loved doing it, for my friends & their friends
harder now, with fewer old friends local, to be there
no, I may not have always understood or comprehended the reason behind their tears, their laughter, etc
BUT if I could relate, I assuredly would
if I had a related story to tell, I might tell
if all I could do was be there, then be there I would
I'd been asked/told before, "it must be how you were raised" or "it must be how you grew up"
far from it, really... I grew up in a largely 'keep your emotions to yourself' household, without it outright being said
but... I couldn't, for I am theemotionalman
no matter how many times hearing "why are you smiling," "there's no point in crying," or just "get over it"
- I DIDN'T -
This. Is. Who. I. Am.
just always have been *shrugs* - not about to change that now
Yes, it's been years that I've truly been able to be that shoulder - in friendship of insane laughter or in comfort & tears
but - if able, I will be there
and, if I'm not, I hope my old friends & their friends remember & know that I would be if I could be
I may not understand the why, fully - and aye, I may even tease a bit for a touch of laughter or quick smile
but I am the man who is there
my shoulder is offered, if it's needed & I'm available to do so
you're all a part of my world & I love being in it, for you, my friends, & for yours
through the good & the bad, the great & the awful
you're in my heart & mind, through miles & miles of distance
as imperfect as everyone else, but offering what I can
with love & friendship
twittage::
3/19 : dreamage :: on vacation on a hawai'ian houseboat w/ mothre & a couple cousins & waking up on the beach to a beautiful sunrise ... far better than an earlier dream where I was doing accounting ( yes, seriously - and booooring *sighs* )
3/23 : get home from 'Bees and there's a neighbour passed out in front of their door... at least, I assume they're passed out, they could be dead *shrugs* who am I go judge ? gonna crash soon :)
4/3 : "Love" being woken at quarter to 2 by neighbours yelling at officers called w/ "take yo mask off when talkin' to me, chauvin" & "leave 'fo you wakes my babies" (while yelling over loud music)
...THEN a 1/2hr later pounding on my door people "looking for the party" *growls* >:(
4/4 : *gags* I forgot that the hallways have a greasy, fishy reek due to particular neighbours this holiday :(
I also didn't realize Target decided to be closed today... so much for that intent this morning - wonder if I'll still be able to order some groceries today ?
4/7 : Wake up w/ that thought, 'hey, haven't talked to fathre in awhile, should give a call after work,' which segues into rememrance that I won't be talking to fathre for quite awhile...
4/8 : hearing someone(s) say they respect your opinion, even if they don't agree or hearing someone(s) say they have trust in you are amazing things to hear, things that go to heart, mind, & soul - hearing them, more than once, from multiple people, in the same week ...thanks to all !
4/10 : Did you hear Prince Philip died ?
'I'm not into modern politics, did you hear dmx died ?'
I'm was never really into motocross anyways...
4/13 : suuuure - leave the local 'Bees, get home no issue, and THEN, suddenly & without warning, have the hiccups like an SOB *laughs* - Oi! these things are killin' me!
4/16 : Nice t'have cool neighbours - just spent 4hrs w/ a neighbour & his bro-in-law bs'ing as they bbq'd, had a couple beers, & just enjoying a semi-decent day before it got too cool outside :)
4/18 : it's saddening how offended people get now by the term 'colourblind' - they start gettin' all PO'd & ranting until I'm "DUDE, *I* should be the one PO'd, I ACTUALLY, quite literally *CAN'T* see colours, jackhole!" ...and even THEN sometimes you get 'whatever' *growls/sighs*
Recent Random Playlist (albums) ::
Marc Bolan & T. Rex - [multiple albums]
watched recently :
via rental/streaming:
The Falcon & The Winter Soldier (1st Season)
Zack Snyder's Justice League
American Gods (3rd Season)
Batwoman (1st Season)
Glee (3rd Season)
Simpsons (1st Season)
October Faction (1st Season)
Sweet Home (1st Season)
My Hero Academia (Series)
The Orville (1st & 2nd Season)
Resident Alien (1st Season)
Godzilla Vs Kong
Invincible (1st Season)
Reaper (1st Season)
Stan Against Evil (1st & 2nd Season)
Ashes And Diamonds
ownedflix:
The Lady Eve
The Palm Beach Story
Predators
The Predator
X-Men: Dark Phoenix
The New Mutants
Fringe (5th Season)
Innerspace
Once Upon A Time In Mexico
Mad Max: Fury Road
Day Of The Dead: Bloodline
Rottentail
Satanic Panic
Mystery Date
Con Air
The Waterboy
Freaks Of Nature
Blade Runner 2049
Charles Band's Curse Of The Puppet Master
Charles Band's Retro Puppet Master
The Final Girls
Tremors: Shrieker Island
-thom Wolfox sR Rhose, AK/GOT (OOP)
"Keep Living & Loving Life!"
"America needs creation not destruction, cooperation not contempt, security not anarchy, healing not hatred, justice not chaos."
President Donald Trump * June 1st, 2020