...and he's spent most of it since in ICU *sighs* - where he still is and still has a ways to go
this "adventure" has ran the gamut of many negatives & a few positives *sighs* - but SOMEhow he continues to push through
we're a stubborn lot, I guess ;)
I know I feel pretty demn exhausted & can only imagine how fathre is feeling :(
he'd gone septic - more than once! :( - leading to toxic megacolon where we had to decide to have (most of) his colon removed
( one helluva hard decision, but with the choices at hand, THE only decision )
since then he's dealt with being diagnosed with HIT & had/having adema & fluid around the heart - in the same day!
( "like lightning striking twice" per one of the many Drs )
a deadly white blood cell count, which took forever to go down *sighs*
and most recently diagnosed with Takotsubo Cardiomyopathy - barely even days after he was finally taken off the ventilator
he only started to become responsive & able to nod/yes & shake head/no just the day before I returned home *sighs*
( I was able to get over to ND for about a week after discovering a semi-local cheap airline ...
I was the only passenger for the trip home ;) - all I needed was Hef & some Playmates & it would've been perfection :D )
while I was at their home I found the POA, Medical POA, & Will - which were 'missing' ( they definitely weren't where they should've been )
...so, at least I know we had the legal right to do what we did, choice-wise, & - if things happen to turn worse... again... - we have the plans in hand
as I told a few people, it's "thinking positive while planning for the worst" - it may sound shitty to some, but it is what it is
he's not 'out of the woods' yet - and has a long recovery period to come once he is *deep sigh*
so there's a LONG road to come - for all of us, I suppose
and - aye - he may be PO'd at some of the decisions we had to make... maybe... but I know we decided the right things, as tough as the decisions may've been
it is/was tough knowing & making life-altering decisions for someone other than self or daughters - let alone my fathre, for f's sake !!
no, I have zero regrets for what we've done thus far & what we made future choices regarding thus far
I definitely don't envy anyone who ever has to go through this kind of thing - let alone my fathre himself !!
seeing him pain was a living hell :(
ANYways - again, it's been a month of hell for him... and, again, a long road ahead
thanks for everyone's thoughts & words
...it helps far more than people probably realize !
Keep on Living & Loving Life, my Lovelies & Gentlefolk !
twittage & postings ::
1/1 : kinda saddening the 1st day of the year and I already had to tell a neighbour not to play in the stairwell ( with his daughter telling him "I TOLD you, daddy!" ) ... *deep sigh* he seriously said "oh, but it's ok, we're just playin' & runnin'" yeah, that'd be a "no, it's not"
1/1 II : *laughs* - just heard the 1st floor neighbour, who does part-time caretaking, confront the guy as well : "you need to be playing inside your HOUSE - this isn't part of your HOUSE, y'understand... you're too loud out here, ok?" :D some of my neighbours aren't bleedin' idiots :)
1/5-6 : hard, life-altering decisions made, 1st 'step' in hard surgery complete - up to him to fight this, physically, ... or not... & hard road to follow
1/6 : ...is it bad I've never regretted a decision I've made, because of where it's led me ?
though, have I truly had to make a life-altering decision for another before now ?
1/7 : taking Th/Fr or Fr/Mo off & - somehow - getting to GF
rental car too spendy currently, but looks like possible cheap/charter to GF or TRF
...fathre out of '2nd step,' sewn-up, 'installed,' & still sedated - don't know wbc nor what next step(s) will be, but if he makes it through there's a lot of recovery on the horizon
1/15 : a therapist told me, "Write letters to the people who you hate and burn them later." I did that… but now what should I do with the letters ?
1/17 : it's been a month since fathre's "hospital adventure" began ( w/ a few short days at home included ) - & still more to go...
since my return from GF, he's been extubated, was able to say his name/b'date, having throat/swallow testing, & diagnosed w/ Takotsubo Cardiomyopathy
...I know *I* still feel exhausted, so can only imagine how fathre is feeling through all this - thanks, again, all for your thoughts & everything !!
watched recently :
via rental/streaming:
Lost In Space (2nd Season)
The Magicians (4th Season)
Supernatural (12th Season)
Lucifer (4th Season)
The Mandalorian (1st Season)
Doctor Who (latest)
Crisis On Infinite Earths (crossover event)
Terminator: Dark Fate
ownedflix:
Farscape (4th Season)
It: Chapter Two
Model Hunger
Alfred Hitchcock's Blackmail
Alfred Hitchcock's The Lodger [: A Story Of The London Fog]
The Angry Birds Movie 2
Goosebumps: Haunted Halloween
Solo: A Star Wars Story
-thom Wolfox sR Rhose, AK/GOT (OOP)