and already it feels like the summer, hells, the entire year thus far!, has been flying by
it's crazy sometimes when one considers - has it really been so long?
hells, I was semi-reminiscing with a new(er) employee earlier today on the things I used to do...
all of the volunteering and assisting I did - some not that long ago, others quite some time ago now:
assisting show horses, musicians (country, metal, & rock), writers, artists, models, exotic dancers, burlesque queens, and then some ( some combinations thereof )
volunteering at conventions, shows, fairs, and concerts in sometimes multiple capacities - and enjoying it all :)
I've met - and befriended, in a minor few cases - minor and big names via the aforementioned, some in unexpected ways, some I didn't realize until mid-conversation just who I was conversing with!
...yet, all of these things mere blips, tiny little moments amidst otherwise quiet albiet unusual years
not that I'd give any of it up, mind you - not that I'd expect some of the people I worked with or met to remember me, either
life is what it is, and I've had some adventures and great moments through the chaos of this life of mine
I've faced and survived damage from unexpected instances, dealt with memory loss, and the all-too often loss of friends, co-workers, and family
2012 still stands out as the only year between '88 and now that not a single person I knew or loved died ( 4 so far this year, so a "normal" year in that regard )
I live with pain - since childhood and from the aforementioned damage(s), as well as more recent from sources unknown...
but - as I've said before and will likely always say - Life is about Living, and Living is what I do :)
and, even with all of the above, even with no longer volunteering and seldom seeing those friends still with us, I enjoy the 7 hells out of Life!
aye, my life has become fairly tame, relatively boring, and semi-stagnant, but - demn it - I like where I am
yeh, maybe someday I'll re-work volunteering possibilities back into my life ( just have to have the time and way to get there )
yeh, maybe someday I'll have another year where no one I know/love dies ( I gaurantee nothing, though, and I can laugh about it now - even recent deaths )
yeh, maybe someday I'll wake up with no pain... but I actually hope not on that one, as it reminds me I'm still alive
yeh, maybe someday I'll be with someone who lives me in return ( the likelihood on that one is very low, mind you! )
but... all of these maybes are meaningless...
I Live for Today - Today is where I am, not tomorrow nor the past - Today is where I'll do what I'm able to the best of my ability
Today is My Time, be it alone or shared with my darlin' spawnlings, be it at work or finding something to do on a day off
as long as I'm physically capable of doing so, I'm going to be facing the day with a smile and loving the hells out of it!
ANYways, my lovelies and gentlefolk... have yourself a wonderful August and we'll see you on my next post!
random twits and rants of the week::
7/25 :
never seen two happier girls that I made bacon for dinner *laughs* - I suppose there's the possibility that they just may be my spawnlings
7/26 :
*smirks* only online can I be a leftist, right-wing, conservative, liberal, anti-xtian, gay-hating seditionist... gotta <3 internet idiocy ;)
7/27 :
in response to the idiocy running rampant: if you find correlation between paedophelia and homosexuality, you're extolling your ignorance!
7/29 :
lest we forget: in my youth the ultra-white, ultra-xtian were the RepubliCan't minority, as pro-drug, super-libs were the DemoCrap minority
7/30 :
dream: someone unsuccessfully teaching me to use a multi-button game system holder - couldn't get through tutorial, probably just like RL
7/30 II :
*smacks forehead* reporter on news this morning said "anal - ist" instead of analyst ... weird enough it's become pro-drug church-oriented
7/30 III :
ok, kids - since enough of you have popped out of the woodwork wondering why I'm not responding to texts... I. DO. NOT. HAVE. A. CELPHONE.
...and, for those of you who still don't get it - my landline doesn't "do texts" - and, no, contrary to what one particularly 'intelligent' (//sarcasm//) person tried to tell me, I cannot "download an ap" onto my landline phone that will allow it to "do texts" nor is it "easier to download than [I] think" on my landline phone. it's just a regular phone, sorry... NOT A CELPHONE. there were phones before celphones - and I have one of them... and, yes, when I mentioned payphones they ARE a "real thing."
*growls*
Quote Of The Week ::
"...I think you would have made a great Muppet..."
watched recently :
via netflix/hulu:
South Park (1st Season)
The Sarah Jane Adventures (3rd & 4th Season)
Division III: Football's Finest
The Toxic Avenger
The Toxic Avenger Part II
The Toxic Avenger Part III: The Last Temptation Of Toxie
Citizen Toxie: The Toxic Avenger IV
Ghoulies III: Ghoulies Go To College
Danger 5 (1st Season)
Wet Hot American Summer: First Day Of Camp (1st Season)
ownedflix:
World Without End (1956)
Brave [Pixar's]
Frozen [Disney's]
Men In Black
MirrorMask
Grandma's Boy
-thom Wolfox sR Rhose
unusualist - I have yet to find a religion and/or spirituality that fits my own personal beliefs... other than, of course, the fact I am a (fallen) god.