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It has been quite a week! I thought the demons were goneHA!!! Was I wrong? They were just hanging out in the shadows, lurking. I know why they came backtwo triggers set them loose again. The first was an encounter with a younger woman (no one here) who, in effect made me feel very inadequate, unattractiveold, very old. I shouldnt have cared, but it just caught me off guard and at a low point anywaythe experience made me think some very negative thoughts about who I am and what my life is all about. The second trigger has to do with my counseling work. I had to write my final reflection for my counseling license portfolio. The piece is short, but meant to bring all the learningand emotions surrounding the work Ive doneinto focus as a culminating narrative. All of the feelings surrounding the bullying I endured, all the family stuff, and all the feelings of little self-worth came back with a vengeance. I am a stronger person for all of it, but my foundation was rocked again, right to its core. Friday and yesterday were so rough I considered the unthinkable again, but brought myself out of it this timeof course with the help of people herelovely friends who knew what I was going through. This time it was a little differentI appreciate all the help and LOVE I received from people here, but I could also draw on the power I felt inside myself. I think the process has made me a better person, better able to help those kids I work with at schoolthe whole point of the process in the first place. I have evolved, changed. Yet, it doesnt lessen the feelings I have for all the people I know hereand love so much. If anything it makes me appreciate all of you even more, much more. I never want to take anyone here for granted and as long as I have breath in me I wont do that. Which brings me to another pointall the people I promised portraits ofall my new and old friendsIll get to them, I promiseand I take my promises VERY seriously. I will have much more free time now that my portfolio work is nearly done so I will get to everyone as soon as I can. So, here is one for Jaclyn. I hope she likes itI had fun drawing her in glassessomething about a woman in glasses, HOT!!! I also did a ROUGH sketch of Mya as Vampirella. I love Vampyshe is my favorite vampire super heroine Goddess!!! I have another one of Mya I am working on nowhopefully I can get it done by the end of the day, but it looks doubtfultoo many interruptions, but thats another story. So Blog thats all for nowI love all of you!
Have a nice day
It has been quite a week! I thought the demons were goneHA!!! Was I wrong? They were just hanging out in the shadows, lurking. I know why they came backtwo triggers set them loose again. The first was an encounter with a younger woman (no one here) who, in effect made me feel very inadequate, unattractiveold, very old. I shouldnt have cared, but it just caught me off guard and at a low point anywaythe experience made me think some very negative thoughts about who I am and what my life is all about. The second trigger has to do with my counseling work. I had to write my final reflection for my counseling license portfolio. The piece is short, but meant to bring all the learningand emotions surrounding the work Ive doneinto focus as a culminating narrative. All of the feelings surrounding the bullying I endured, all the family stuff, and all the feelings of little self-worth came back with a vengeance. I am a stronger person for all of it, but my foundation was rocked again, right to its core. Friday and yesterday were so rough I considered the unthinkable again, but brought myself out of it this timeof course with the help of people herelovely friends who knew what I was going through. This time it was a little differentI appreciate all the help and LOVE I received from people here, but I could also draw on the power I felt inside myself. I think the process has made me a better person, better able to help those kids I work with at schoolthe whole point of the process in the first place. I have evolved, changed. Yet, it doesnt lessen the feelings I have for all the people I know hereand love so much. If anything it makes me appreciate all of you even more, much more. I never want to take anyone here for granted and as long as I have breath in me I wont do that. Which brings me to another pointall the people I promised portraits ofall my new and old friendsIll get to them, I promiseand I take my promises VERY seriously. I will have much more free time now that my portfolio work is nearly done so I will get to everyone as soon as I can. So, here is one for Jaclyn. I hope she likes itI had fun drawing her in glassessomething about a woman in glasses, HOT!!! I also did a ROUGH sketch of Mya as Vampirella. I love Vampyshe is my favorite vampire super heroine Goddess!!! I have another one of Mya I am working on nowhopefully I can get it done by the end of the day, but it looks doubtfultoo many interruptions, but thats another story. So Blog thats all for nowI love all of you!
Have a nice day
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