Hi SG,
I hate to be so down in the dumps, but I've had a hard time over the past few weeks and found myself spread too thin. I feel like I am spinning my wheels and devoting too much time to things that never yield any tangible results.
I started two Yahoo groups and thought they would really take off, but nothing has happened so I am going to close one, revamp the other and hope for the best. If no one has the time to post anything to the Artist's group, then I will close that one, too.
I have been devoting more time to my SG journal and online Pagan group on that site because more people seem to post and be interested in that group. All the local stuff I've tried to be involved with has fizzled. I still feel isolated here, but I've come to the conclusion it is my focus on the Internet and E-mail that is the problem. This link is too tentative and fragile. It is too easy to get tangled up with mundane life and forget to remember the people I've "met" on the web. I NEED HUMAN CONTACT. I hate sending out a message and after a few e-mails back and forth, nothing. This is not healthy, especially for me. Trying to impress on people my expectations, hopes, desires, what the hell am I doing!
I'm done, it's too much emotionally. I almost killed myself over this kind of nonsense before and I'm not going to get caught up in it again.
As far as trying to join or form a Coven...thanks, but no thanks. I think I'll just stay solitary and not have to deal with the fatheads of the Pagan world.
There are too many distractions here at the moment for me to continue. I still have no computer at home and have to rely on the school computers and the library...it's a drag. Maybe when I get back to this journal later I'll be in a better mood.
I hate to be so down in the dumps, but I've had a hard time over the past few weeks and found myself spread too thin. I feel like I am spinning my wheels and devoting too much time to things that never yield any tangible results.
I started two Yahoo groups and thought they would really take off, but nothing has happened so I am going to close one, revamp the other and hope for the best. If no one has the time to post anything to the Artist's group, then I will close that one, too.
I have been devoting more time to my SG journal and online Pagan group on that site because more people seem to post and be interested in that group. All the local stuff I've tried to be involved with has fizzled. I still feel isolated here, but I've come to the conclusion it is my focus on the Internet and E-mail that is the problem. This link is too tentative and fragile. It is too easy to get tangled up with mundane life and forget to remember the people I've "met" on the web. I NEED HUMAN CONTACT. I hate sending out a message and after a few e-mails back and forth, nothing. This is not healthy, especially for me. Trying to impress on people my expectations, hopes, desires, what the hell am I doing!
I'm done, it's too much emotionally. I almost killed myself over this kind of nonsense before and I'm not going to get caught up in it again.
As far as trying to join or form a Coven...thanks, but no thanks. I think I'll just stay solitary and not have to deal with the fatheads of the Pagan world.
There are too many distractions here at the moment for me to continue. I still have no computer at home and have to rely on the school computers and the library...it's a drag. Maybe when I get back to this journal later I'll be in a better mood.