wishicould

Whoa...I just got lost in the banner ad for like two minutes or so. I feel my life force slipping away even as I type.

I broke it off with the girl I was seeing, and it wasn't as hard or bad as I had feared. Sometimes I over anaylize things and drown my fears. I hope I'll be able to get over this one personality flaw, before I drive some other poor undeserving female away...But I also enjoy being a dick sometimes too. I just don't think I want to be accountable for my whereabouts, or my daily plans. Sometimes I just want to be alone and not have to talk someone into the way I'm feeling. Why can't I just be? I love having someone there, and I like being a someone that is there too. But I like being myself too. I wish I could make a girl understand that...